MagicaL WorLd of LiL Dee

2011-03-17T01:13:00.003+08:00

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back to square 1??

2011-03-17T01:13:00.001+08:00

Arghhhhhh! I juz wanna scream!!!! I wanna let everything go! Dear god if dis is wat u wan miie 2 go thru plz guide miie. N if dis is 2 show miie tat I shud go b gimme all tha courage. I need al tat. I cnt go thru dis all by mysef. Ya ALLAH, bantulah hambamu.)': Aku tidak sanggup lgi. 4 tahun penuh onak duri dlm kehidupan ku bersama dia. Aku da tak kuat lgi.)':

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i mish him more den anithng

2009-08-07T14:33:00.001+08:00

arwah abah

I wuz juz slacking @ nnk's plc wit Mira.. Suddenly she tok abt tha moment arwah abah had his last breath in dis world... My tears juz flow down my cheeks.. Merindui die teramat sngt..='( Wen its near Ramadhan i feel tha great lost again.. Seem like juz ystrday he wuz joking ard wit us & nw he's gone.. He's far far awae frm us...
Everythng is stil fresh in my mind.. Tha last few moment of arwah abah in tha hospital.. Stil rmbr tat morning b4 he left us, he wake every1 of us 2 "salaam" as he's going of 2 werk.. & i didnt realiz its wuz our last "ciuman ditngn abah".. I heard he voice "dayah, abah da nk g keje nie".. Oooooh....! ='( Permergian yg tidak disngka.. Abah, we mish u alot.. Im so not lukg forward fer Raye wit0ut abah.. Suasana yg begitu berbedah.. It's true wen ppl sae "wen they r not ard, we'l start 2 realiz hw much we mish em & nid em."
Regretting tat all dis while wen his ard i neva been gud 2 him..maafkn dayah abah...
I rmbr wen i wuz young, wen he reach hm, we'l prepare him water.. Wen we were in pain he massage us..='( But wen we get older we neva din tat animore...='( I wuz a gud daughter 2 him..im sowie abah...
I cnt continue dis post..sowie ppl.. Thnx 2 all hu's been giving us support.. Continue praying fer miie & my family...

2009-08-02T13:35:00.002+08:00

Hey readers...
Y tha heck blogger like taik ar now? Lol... Serious seh.. But nemind as long as i cn stil post sth i hapiie.. haha...
Newae, yesterday nite i had a long tok wip a fwen abt my relationshp wip Hyrul.. I dunno hw many ppl has aredy ask miie tha same qns.. "R u guyx 2getha? Y do u guyx act like couples?"
Im so lost & dunno wat 2 ans.. 2 thnk back, i do agree tat both of us acted like couples...idk la... I noe im reli stubborn.. I've neva listen 2 my fwens hu advise miie.. I tried, but now im back 2 square 1...
So yesterday, i decided 2 tell him of.. Y? Its bcoz i feel guilty weneva im wip him.. U noe wat, he doesnt even tel Leha tat his out wip miie.. & wen we r out, he doesnt even ans her kol! I feel bad 2 her.. I wan 2 tel her but i feel bad 2 him!! Argh! Mcm taik ar...I dunno y did i choose dis route..
y izzit so hard fer him 2 lepaskn 1??? 1 hav 2 get hurt 2 end dis! But he doesnt even try 2 understand..!
Actuali i mysef dunno wat i wan in dis situatn..*sigh*
Sumtimes i stil wan him as fwen sumtimes i juz wan him out of my life...! Idk.. So confused wif mysef.. Dis fwenshp is not juz fwenshp..i cn tel u, he does treat miie lyk a fwen.. Meb aku yg "perasan".. But den y most of our fwen ask tat qns? Isnt it obvious? *sigh* Dis is wat i wil feel wen im wip him..i stil feel luved by him.. & i tend 2 hope fer sumthng den..whch im not supposed 2.. Argh!
Sumtimes i juz wonder, y did i even hav 2 noe him in tha 1st plc?? Hmm... I reli dunno wat 2 do.. Im not tat strong 2 go off w/o him...am i???? Damn!

Guilty

2009-07-29T02:38:00.000+08:00

Wuz caught redhanded by my love.. Hmm...hopefully it will stop...
No more shit cuming frm miie...juz pray & hope tat i cn do it...

He's not giving up

2009-07-26T05:00:00.001+08:00

We been toking on tha phone every nite...i've been thnking, hu r we?? y r we so close?? Wel, i mysef not so sure... Im so trap in dis situatn again & again...bored la seh.. No new story kn? Haix... Im kinda hapiie wen i din contct him 4 like 3wks, but nw, its kinda hard 2 sae...
Seem like its reli a hard choice 4 him...but im not hoping fer anithng... Im hapiie weneva u r...nth more fer miie 2 ask but juz ur hapieness...
U mayb caught in my kindness & scarifices tat i gone thru juz fer u but juz 2 let u noe, i did everythng willingly & im not hoping fer anithng 2 repay miie...
Weneva i ask abt hu u will choice u will sae u dunno.. haix... Not giving up yet huh? Since u cnt decide den 1 hav 2 give up... Am i ryt?
She luv u, U luv her, & y am i in tha pix again?? I thnk u noe wat best fer u.. If u dun do it... Den i will... I mayb 2 harsh, but im juz trying 2 make u c sth r beta of left as memories... & our story shud hav ended long b4...

Random

2009-07-24T00:32:00.001+08:00

Wanna ask fer ur opinion la...
Will u go with sum1 hu luv u or sum1 U luv??
Juz a random question tat came into my mind...hehe..

Unbelievable

2009-07-16T00:48:00.001+08:00

Its reli unbelievable!!!!! Wanna noe wat happen???? Hehehe....
I met sum1 on my wae hm frm werk juz nw!!! Lol... I wuz alone walkg bck @ amk cntrl Mcd thr... Den i saw dis peson hu luk lyk my cuzzen, so i luk @ him lyk 1 kind la... Wen he turn onli, i wuz lyk not him!!! I got tha wrong peson seh... Lol... Nasib baik tk tegur die... He wuznt my cuzzen, BUT he's sum1 i noe & i've love b4...lol... I became so nebous seh.. I wuz trying 2 find a wae 2 escape frm him toking 2 miie...lol... But he did tegur miie... So juz tok 2 him fer awhile... I wuz so shocked tat i cnt sae much... Im lost of words seh... I wuz juz smiling all tha wae... Hahaha... & i reli cnt xplain tha happiness tat i felt wen i mit him... Its reli a diff kinda happiness tat i felt...Why ar?
Tha otha tym wen he added miie in fb oso i wuz sooooooooooooooooo hapiiie... & i've neva felt tat hapiie b4 in my life..
Actuali he wuz my 1st LOVE.. I fell in LOVE wif him wen i wuz in P6... I noe its 2 young 2 sae it love... But i cn neva forgt him... Afta we wen 2 Secondary life, we hav neva met at all.. But i do kip thnkg of him sumtimes.. Like 1ce in a blue moon i'l thnk of him in sudden.. Weird seh... At times i thnk wil i eva mit him again...& den i'l sae tat cnt neva happen... Coz its been like 8yrs we neva even mit or bump into each otha... So thot meb i wuz juz dreaming tat i'l mit him again lor... Serious seh.. I neva thot tat we'l b in contct again... But Alhamdullilah tat we've gotta contct back..=) Im juz reli hapiie tat we met 2dae nite...lol...
160709 tha date 2 rmbr...=) heee....

Neva thot i cud cry wen its ur last time wip us.

2009-07-11T22:53:00.002+08:00

Its Friday, 100709, tha dae which all of us not luking forward fer...*sigh* Its here..its Ira's last dae @ werk.. It v.sad 2 thnk abt it.. I cnt imagine we r not gg 2 spend our time F***-ing ppl in tha face, make fun of othaz & laugh @ each otha stupidity..*sigh*
Since it wuz Ira's last dae, Alin decide 2 mit us @ werk fer tha last time oso..=( During our lunch time Alin wuz aredy waitg fer us bhind out werk plc.. She tag along fer our lunch fer tha last time... Gosh! i reli feel like crying wen im posting dis... but try b strong & finish dis post aite guyx...
Afta lunch like normal we'l go out coz sum of 'em wanna smoke... Here cums tha part tat reli touched miie... Alin gotta go off asap coz her boifee & tha siblings r waitg fer her.. So she "salam" us & giv each 1 a hug.. Den Yana (i thnk) ask fer a grp hug... So all of us HUGS!!! Den ira started crying!! Meb coz she's tha youngest among all tat y she cried la.. Ohno! Den came miie&alin & den tha rest... WE ALL SHRED TEARS!!! I cnt believe wat juz happen!!
Den we wen bck 2 werk, wip each of us face so black & pale afta crying.. Our colleges all ask r we okey..we juz say okey... Den anotha incident happen.. Our lil darling ira went 2 every1 of us counter & gav us a pcs of ppr scribble "I LOVE U, DAYAH".. Wen i read tat i wuz reli holdg bck my tears seh... Den Has lak disturd ira say he dun cre if ira's not ard..out of sudden ira's tear juz fell down her cheeks.. Miie & zurah wuz thr pon ikot shred tears.. Wat make her even cry is Alin msg... Dis is wat she msg us → 'my sygs fwens eventho kiteorg da go separate waes, ur smile, laughter stil stay in my ♥.. I gain many xperience.. We had tha best tym eva.. We joke abt thngs even actuali its not funny.. I ♥ u guys..n gonna miss u lots.. Memories wil b kept deep in my ♥.. Muuuackc ='(' Seeing ira's tear juz make miie cry.. We wen bhind 2 cool down, tried 2 cool ira..instead tha 3 of us cried & hug each otha...='( Tat moment i felt tat dis fwenship reli means alot 2 us, especially ira.. Wip juz 3mths of knowing each otha we cn cry went its their last dae.. I've neva went thru dis kinda fwenship.. I din imagine tat dis fwenship is so meaningful tat we'l cry on tha last mit up @ werk..='(
& til nw i cn shred tears thnkg of tha daes we hav wen thru... Even nw posting dis make miie cry... Ouhhhhhh...i reli cnt help it...='( Gosh! Im reli missing 'em nw... Will our daex b tha same w/o 'em?? They were reli v.tha "kecoh-rable"...
Dis is wat we crazy ppl did..we kish each otha, slap each otha in tha forehead, scream @ each othaz ears, slap each othaz butts, hugs each otha titely & critize ppl ard us!!! Lol... Miie & ira wil sing all tha dangdut songs we know & dis song we both lurv "kemana kau mghilangkn diri". We neva st0p laughing wen we r werking 2gtha.. We dun cre if we r tha grp tha is black listed coz wat we noe we do our werk.. & if by tha end of tha dae we r strez @ werk, we laugh everythng out.. Tats tha best part of dis fwenship... But its reli sad we din hav our outing yet..*sigh*
We plan alot of outing but none wen well.. So hav 2 postpon & til nw..=( Recently juz plan if we r werkg on National Dae, we'l wear red&white...*sigh* Smuenye tk kesampaian seh.. Haix..
I reli ♥ u guyx.. I reli hope u guyx wil stay in contct wip us..
We wish ya'll all tha best in ur future ehk..
Same 2 tha rest yg not werking animore, like, Narimah, Abidah & Adib..
Dun eva 4gt us.. Nk kawen dun 4gt 2 invite aitex? Lol
We mish u alots Alin&Ira
Wip ♥, hugs&kisses
LiL Dee

Below r sum pix & song tat miie&ira use 2 sing..Enjoy..=')

From tha 4 of us

To tha 2 of u

Kisses fer our LiL Ira

Memories of us

Wen our craziness starts.=')

Oso to tha rest

Its nice 2 know ya'll

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My Darling Azlin wuz terminated..sigh

2009-07-08T10:51:00.003+08:00

080709, wed morning i wuz on off..
I recieved a kol from wanie early in tha morning saying tat Azlin wuz TERMINATED from juz b'coz she hav asthma... I wuz super shocked seh wen i heard tat news.. I mean i din xpect tat we r colleges & 2gtha fer only 3mths?? & wat worse is tat those werking under Success Agency wil end their contract dis fri???!!! WTH!!! Dis mean no more my darling Alin & Ira!!! Sad seh... Thnx 2 their crazy-ness & blurr-ness we r owaex laughing our ♥ out... Eventho sumtimes we feel down, frustrated wip ani1, cud b ppl @ werk or outside werk, wip their voice & laughter make our dae..
Ouh....i reli cnt believe wat im hearing seh... Juz tha dae b4 we were camwhoring wip all of us in white...laughing & giggling @ 1 anotha... Din xpect tat it will b our last pix as a whole grp..*sigh* Reli gonna mish my darling seh... She's terminated on tha dae itsef & she din even get 2 mit miie as i wuz on off... She went 2 TTSH 2 mit tha rest..so sad seh cudnt b thr coz got plan... So sowie my dear... Will make it up 4 u aitex? Wil mish u so much seh!!
*Hugs&Kisses*

Below r sum pix we took tha dae b4...↓
Darling Alin&Ira

Tha whole grp

Us

1 of tha best pix

Lotza ♥,
LiL Dee

out wit crazy fwen

2009-06-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

260609, i wuz werking den wuznt feeling abit gud la.. Ard 4+ lidat my IC told miie 2 go hm..scared if anithng happen 2 miie.. I din wan la actuali.. I say im okey but she kip asking miie 2 go hm... Argh! So i hav no choice 2 go hm..but i din go hm la...lol.. I wen 2 miie Ramlan & Hamli at m.sq...haha... Da mit em den mit Aizat jap... Chilled wit him at rooftop den mit Lan & Ham again.. We took photos in tha mrt since we bounce & not mamy ppl in tha train..hehe...
Pix of us...enjoyx...hehe
Hamli & Dee
3 of us
Crazy faces..lol
Burukness
Matrips..haha

Transformer wuz COOL!

2009-06-25T08:24:00.005+08:00

Hey readers!!
Yesterday, 240609, miie went 2 acc Leha mkn pat banquet jap.. Den mit up wit Lan, Syahiid & Syarif.. Plan 2 go watch TRANSFORMER!!!! Lol... I wuz so xcited! I mean, i reli wanted 2 watch it la.. Den they ajk!! Hapiie sia miie... Hee.... N sowie all (Lan, Hiid, Syarip, Arip, Ham & Atin) coz i made u all wait fer miie.. Hee... So we proceed 2 Lido whr we mit Arief, Hamli & Fatin.. They booked tha tix fer us... We make paymt & i blanja 'em popcorn 2 make it up 2 'em..=)
It wuz super-duper cool la! Tha graphics & everythng abt tha show wuz nice! Bumble bee is so cute wen it cries...lol.... Den we wen 2 nearest BK 2 eat... Den walk 2 Alfaalah fer prayers... Den decided 2 play L4D.. So wen back 2 amk... Fatin & Hamli wen hm 1st.. Lan da go werk... Left tha 4 of us.. Juz nice...lol...
Took some pix & waalaa! My dae wuz complete wit a smile & laughter! Thnx 2 'em!
*hugs&kisses*

there is sth special...

2009-06-24T04:21:00.002+08:00

Here's 1 of tha quiz in facebk tat make miie shred tears..

Nur just took the "Is he worth it ...... ?" quiz and the result is there is sth special....

even if he didnt share your love there is sth special between u guys u can share ... friendship.. i know this is a lil bit hard to accept but you should try .... at least to save the friendship or respect between u ... he can be your best friend or just a friend...just try .. at least you will keep talking to him ;)

Image la..im reli trying 2 get over it..not even ani fwenship.. But truthfully im missing him now... Dun mislead miie, miss his fwenship.. I reli do..haix...
I dunno hu shud i listen 2.. "Hati kate nk, minda ckp jgn".. Arghhhhh!!! Wat am i do du???
Oh Allah, hidup ini pnuh tanda tnya... Wat am i 2 do? Wil tha fwenship make miie cry again like b4?? Wit tha fwenship wil i b hapiie like nw?? Im so confuse!!! Sumbody help! Awk...haix...

Close 2 my heart

2009-06-23T06:32:00.005+08:00

I LOVE 'EM LOTX!!!!♥
My Best Among tha Rest!
RamLan,Dee&Syarif
RamLan,Dee&Syarif again
Its only us
3 Lovely Fwenx
Hapiie, Lovingly Fwenship♥

My Werking Babex!!
Zurah&Dee
Zurah,Dee&Alin
Dee&Eera
Eera&Alin
Dee&Alin
Tha Best
Dee&Yana
Loved

Owaex hapiie wit 'em..(:

A Note Juz fer U, HYRUL

2009-06-16T14:52:00.000+08:00

Asslmualaikum awk...

First & foremost kite minta maaf coz mlm kemarin kite kwang ajar while toking 2 u.. I din mean 2 hurt u.. But i juz nid 2 let it all out.. You make miie do it.. I wrote dis on 160609, rmbring our special date..=') Wanna wish u our suspose 2 b 43mth/4yrs & 10mths..=') Sweet memories we hav..
Awk, jujur kite ckp, kite tk pernah benci diri awk.. Tpi kelakuan awk yg buruk 2 uat kite kecil hati.. Im disapted.. & i dunno ini kali kebrp yg awk dgr dis phrase..
I've neva tot of forgetting u bcoz u r stil my fwen.. & fwen stays foreva..rite? But fer nw i thnk its best fer miie & u 2 go our own wae.. Lgipon awk sygkn leha kn... I dun wan 2 b penghlg antare korg.. U do wat is best fer u.. As long as awk hapiie i wil owaex b hapiie fer u..=)
If u r back wit her, plz4 guide her.. Jgn biarkn diri awk terbwk arus yg nta kemane...
Buktikn pat mama & kak ain tat u cn change & b a beta peson.. I noe u cn..
Rite now i am missing u so much, but i cnt do anythng... Juz hav 2 let tha feeling go lidat jek..but im okey wit it..
Kite minta awk jage diri, jage kak ain & mama.. Dun owaex lie 2 'em.. They care & love u so much.. B open wit 'em.. I noe 1 dae they for sure will understand u but u wil hav 2 change ur cara..
Antara kite biarla ia hapus disini..no more miie nagging at u.. U r free, u cn do wateva u wan.. & so am i..=) Dis is wat u wan, & dis is wat i giv u.. I do anithng juz 2 make u hapiie eventho it hurts miie...
Klau de jodoh, insya'allah kite akan bertemu kembali but as wat 2 kite serlahkn pde yg kuase..
& if tat dae eva cum i hope i'l c tha old, in tha sec sch Muhd Khairul Salleh yg pernah kite knl dlu.. Amin..
Permintaan kite yg terakhir, "Ingat ku dlm doamu selalu"

Salam Sayang,
LiL Dee

P/s: Our memories r lock in my heart. Deep down.

060608

2009-06-07T12:03:00.003+08:00

Miie & lan mit up wit my bfs & Ashalina afta their ndp training...
Plan 2 mit @ ct hall, but w reach thr earlier so we shop2 ard 1st w/o 'em... Slow sia dey all.. Hee..
I bought a new sandal, compact powder & a new wallet fer mysef!! Hee... I feel so much hapiie & relief wen i get wat i wan... I mean i dun usualy pamper mysef u c... XD
Den we help lan shop fer his shirt..frm ct hall 2 bishan juz 2 luk fer his shirt...
Den we walk bck 2 amk..miie & ashalina accmpy arief, syarif & lan go "TEPUK".. I wuz juz curious 2 c hw tha treatmt goes...hehe...
Wen over 2 syarif nnk's plc... Ampai jek, anjat gerl2...RMAI DOK!!! Lol.. All his relatives is thr...
Malu jap kite...*shyshy* Hee... We solat magrid & den waited fer tha uncle 2 cum...
Wen tha "TEPUK" start miie la jakun giler...hehe... Wen tha uncle "tepuk", i cud hear tha sound effect like sooooooooooo OUCH! I wuz tha wan luking at it, i almost cry la seh! Lol... It luk reli painful & sound sooooooo painful! Afta dey "tepuk", their hands & legs were so red la... Ouch!
I feel tha pain 2 seh..menangis gerl2..Lol..
Afta tepuk we wen lepak at coffee shop near arief plc.. Chit-chat awhile den go hm...
At hm chat wit Mira aka Miimii thru msn... She suddenly PM miie.....below is our conversation..

7/6/2009	1:30:06 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	someone asked me how to be mentally strong. all i could say is; let's say you felt that there is a need for you to be strong and confident in yourself and not waste nor shed any tears for them because every hurtful tings they did, the pain has it's own strength. either quite painful or VERY painful.. and let's say you know the person quite well already. he's a liar and all. you no longer trust
7/6/2009	1:30:08 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	them(:
7/6/2009	1:31:45 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	hmm...true...
7/6/2009	1:31:57 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	2prevent yourself from getting hurt, you'll have to be strong. show that person that he can no longer do anyting to bring you down. and always has a mindset that says you're mentally stronger than you ever imagined. you might feel the pain or so when you're hurt but atleast if you have a mentally stronger mindset, you could probably bare with the pain.. and when you get used to it, you wont feel a
7/6/2009	1:32:10 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	anyting .
7/6/2009	1:32:12 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	kn3 ?
7/6/2009	1:32:13 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(:
7/6/2009	1:32:19 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	soo , b stronq lurhh !!
7/6/2009	1:32:25 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	donte b sad will youh ?
7/6/2009	1:32:43 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	=D
7/6/2009	1:33:12 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	when thre's a will , thre's a way (:
7/6/2009	1:33:26 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	i will...u made miie shred tears jap...
7/6/2009	1:33:27 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	lol
7/6/2009	1:33:33 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	=')
7/6/2009	1:33:51 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	newae thnx....
7/6/2009	1:34:02 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	dis wk nk kuar?
7/6/2009	1:34:10 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	sudaa laa !!
7/6/2009	1:34:18 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	slaluu last min taq jadiek sheh !!
7/6/2009	1:34:21 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	hummphh !
7/6/2009	1:34:37 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	lol
7/6/2009	1:34:40 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	k2...
7/6/2009	1:34:56 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	dis time fer real...
7/6/2009	1:35:05 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	hehehe
7/6/2009	1:35:16 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	heee !!
7/6/2009	1:35:18 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	uhhkeaa !
7/6/2009	1:35:21 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	ii ken .
7/6/2009	1:35:24 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	daa hols !!
7/6/2009	1:35:25 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(:
7/6/2009	1:35:27 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	heeeehh !
7/6/2009	1:35:32 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	donte b sad kea ?
7/6/2009	1:35:37 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	b strong !
7/6/2009	1:39:41 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	k2...i wil...
7/6/2009	1:40:26 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	nga uatpe nie?
7/6/2009	1:40:39 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	Eating sajerh .
7/6/2009	1:40:41 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	very mendak .
7/6/2009	1:40:44 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	den youh ?
7/6/2009	1:41:25 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	bbl pat pone wit my fwen...
7/6/2009	1:41:26 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	hehe
7/6/2009	1:41:36 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	sape pat uma?
7/6/2009	1:42:05 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	heee !
7/6/2009	1:42:16 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	smuer aderh , abah taqdrr .
7/6/2009	1:42:27 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	he go rewang .
7/6/2009	1:43:46 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	ouh....
7/6/2009	1:44:26 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	tk tok wit ur bf?
7/6/2009	1:44:37 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	bf ?
7/6/2009	1:44:40 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	im singlee !!
7/6/2009	1:44:46 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	noo tym man for guyss !!
7/6/2009	1:44:58 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	guys treat me like trash !
7/6/2009	1:45:19 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	whye must ii waste muii TEARS for a guy?!!
7/6/2009	1:45:30 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	A guy who TREAT me mcm sampah !!
7/6/2009	1:45:34 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	please laa !
7/6/2009	1:45:42 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	guys mcm g2 , i dont wann !
7/6/2009	1:46:59 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	and i wanna show to hym , im strong though sometyms ii feel like CRYING yknow (:
7/6/2009	1:51:39 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	and bby , for hyrul .. luperh kn dea jerhlaa . im sorry , mira bkn naq interfere , u r older enuf to tink kn ? wat for youh wanna waste ur time and effort to make hym happy wif leha or perhaps , other girls? youh r being Not SO KIND to hym , But TOO kind to hym . i remembr once youh told me , youh did all tis to make hym happy ? RUBBISH sehhyy ! wat for youh wanna make hym happy ?
7/6/2009	1:51:51 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	Sedangkn he treat youh like a !!!!!!!
7/6/2009	1:51:57 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	not to be mentioned laa kn .
7/6/2009	1:52:15 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	im ur sister , ii cnt bare to see youh in tis situation !
7/6/2009	1:52:40 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	its been haw many years , and ii tink . its time ferh youh to move on .
7/6/2009	1:53:03 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	donte worry , i will always support youh uhhkeaa muii LIL DEE ? (:
7/6/2009	1:53:51 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	& sorry laa law muii words is harsh =D
7/6/2009	1:58:26 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	=')
7/6/2009	1:58:33 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	i noe dear....
7/6/2009	1:59:34 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	im tryin 2 let it go slowly...
7/6/2009	1:59:55 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	every1 is tellin miie tha same thng...
7/6/2009	2:00:59 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	i reli thnkful i hav u & my fwens hus willing 2 support miie...
7/6/2009	2:01:21 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	thnk u sooooooo much..........
7/6/2009	2:01:27 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	='
7/6/2009	2:01:33 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	=')
7/6/2009	2:01:49 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	awhh !!
7/6/2009	2:01:54 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	ur welcum (:
7/6/2009	2:02:00 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	dont sad2 yerh ?
7/6/2009	2:02:02 AM	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	ILY !
7/6/2009	2:02:23 AM	('.')LίL' Dεε♀	(R) мііміі ѕqυііđ οиε & οиLіі(:	ily2...

Out of sudden i juz shred tears seh... She make miie realiz...i mean at her young age & she's telling all dis 2 miie... Im touched..& at tha same time sad...
She heref realiz tha veri big mistake tat im stil holding on 2...*sigh* Wonder how stupid am i 2 still b thr.. :'( I cry everythng out.. Dis is tha only wae 2 make miie feel so much beta..
My own fwen cried fer miie over wat happen..they felt tha pain tat im going thru but they cudnt help change everythng til i mysef decide 2 move on..
Its been 5yrs i've known him..3yrs of doa & hopes fer him 2 change... Nw i hav & reali hav 2 let him go.. Its reali painful... Afta all tha scarifices juz 2 make him realiz on his mistakes & nw im giving up.. Meb juz doa but no more hopes.. Of coz i will definitely miss everythng abt him but 2 thnk again, hw long wil i wan 2 make mysef suffer & cry...? Im juz a normal gerl hu wants hapiienes 2 & b hapiie wit sum1 i lurv & b lurved..
I still rmbr wat she told miie "If i were u dayah, i wil let him go. Coz i noe tat tha otha wil wan him coz of tat reason." It hurts 2 hear tat but i hav 2 accept tha fact..
Ouhhhh...i wished all dis hadnt happen 2 miie.. Dee redha skrg...='(

SWINE FLU in S'pore!!!

2009-05-27T00:12:00.002+08:00

I wuz suppose 2 be on off but my agent call miie early morning 2 ask miie 2 cover fer a fwen.. They call ard 10.40 whch is so late aredy la.. Early morning got wake up call seh..lol... So ya, i wokeup, bath & get dress er werk.. Obviously i wuz late la..took cab 2 werk... Den tha taxi driver told miie tat he juz heard tha news abt thr's in comfrm case in S'pore.. N tha patient wuz strait send 2 TTSH! She's in TTSH!! Oh god! I wuz so shocked seh..!! But cudnt do much..still hav 2 go 2 werk ma... "Sape seh tk tkot.. Tpi tkpela, kite carik rezki yg halal.. Dee Doakn tat all of us werking at TTSH slalu dilindungi ALLAH.. Amin."
Do pray fer us aitex?
Sum pix of werk..enjoy..

Memories

2009-05-18T03:24:00.004+08:00

I happen 2 read hafiz blog..saw tha pix he uploaded in his blog.. Seem like it wuz ystrdy we were hapiie 2getha..but nw it has change..
I cnt help mysef but 2 cry.. Ohhh! All tha memories came playing in my mind.. It hurts...soooo much.... It teks so long fer sum1 2 4get abt tha peson they used 2 love.. Hw i wish i dun hav 2 do dis.. But i gotta b strong fer mysef.. I dun wanna continue hurting mysef n crying.. I do wanna feel hapiie wit sum1 hu cn gimmie all tha love & guide miie... I cnt 4eva hope fer u.. If i do wat abt her??? Arrrgggghhhh! Y did i eva hav 2 noe u?? Y?? U must b crazy wen u sae tat! Hw cud u b so heartless? Dun u even noe u gonna hurt more den 1 heart? Hw do i xplain everythng 2 u? Hw do i make u c y am i doing dis...
U guyx only thnk abt ur own feeling.. Both r so self-centered.. Cnt u even thnk abt othas? Wateva it is... I dunno wat so eva ur reason of teking miie as ur fwen.. I sure hope u r happie wit wat u've got.. N plz, if u wan u cn hurt miie, but not tat innocent gerl kiex?

Awk, if only awk phm perasaan kite.. Tpi syg.. Maafkn kite.. Kite tk tau ampai bile lgi kite bole sbr.. Kesbran kite da ampai ke tahap yg paling hujung awk.. Ampai bile awk nk kite saksikn kehidupan awk & die? Kite nie de hati & perasaan.. Kite pon nk hidup bahgia disamping org yg mnyintai kite..

They sae "If u want to give up u shud hav done it earlier. Not wen u hav scarific on it, den let it go? Why waste tha time?" But fer miie i dunno til wen cn i hang on.. Meb i shall juz pray & hope fer u bck frm a distance.. Biar ia nye dlm diam..

Its true wen they say "Loving sum1 takes u juz an hr. But to forget 'em takes a lifetime"

Wen dinner wit my CLOSEFWENS

2009-05-15T01:02:00.001+08:00

It wuz my off day, so thot meb hav dinner wit my BFs..hehe... I asked Arief, Syarif, Ramlan & Hafiz fer a date..lol... Kecoh ehk Dee..haha... All set 2 go dinner wit miie at AMK jek... B4 miting 'em wen orchard wit Baizurah 2 send our timesheet.. Chill at orchard fer while...
Den mit up Ramlan at AMK mrt den we make a move 2 dunno dis plc whr Syahiid owaex go eat wit 'em.. I wanted 2 eat western food so tats y go thr n mamam...hehe... Mit up wit Hafiz, Arief & syarif at thr makan plc..hehe... Ordered our food... While eating we chit-chat oso.. We reli had a gud laugh seh... We tok abt all kind of thngs.. I feel much relief wen i met 'em up.. Atleast fer tha moment im not even thnking of wat had happen at hm, werk & so on..
Im thnkful tat i hav 'em as my fwenx.. They've neva let miie down.. Owaex thr wen i nid 'em.. They neva fail 2 put a SMILE on my face weneva im down.. I cnt imagine my life w/o 'em around 2 gimmie support & guidance.. Each & everyone of 'em hav their own specaility tat reli attracts miie.. U wil realiz hu is ur true fwen & hu is juz a fwen hu cum & go in ur life. Wen u r in nid they willing 2 giv u a shoulder 2 cry on & listen 2 u & tries 2 cheer u up.. & it has owaex been 'em hu tries 2 cheer miie up even if they dun reli noe wats tha reli prob is.. All they wan is 2 c tha SMILE..
Will tok abt 'em nw..
My dear Ramlan has owaex listen & giving miie advise all dis while.. I neva thot our fwenship wud last dis long.. Coz during sec life we were not cloze..n nw i noe our fwenship means alot 2 miie.. Thinking tat u r going fer NS soon i shred tears.. Wel, u din noe kn? Ya, i did wen i read u blog.. No 1 noe abt it..bt nw i let it out.. If u thnk i wunt miss u, u r definitely so wrong... Im gonna miss u soooo much.. Even nw wen we dun hangout like we use 2 wit Jamal & Ninie, i miss tat moments..
My dear Syarif has been a gud listener 2.. We share stories 2getha.. I dunno y, but i love 2 listen 2 his LOVE life...hehe.. Ssshhhsss! He's a very strait forward guy.. I dunno since wen we get cloze wit each otha... "Awk, u rmbr wat made us so cloze nw?" Lol... But fer sure i love hanging out wit him.. Full of fun & laughter!! =D
My dear Hafiz is tha kecoh-rable fwen of mine.. He love 2 Laugh! He cheer miie up wit his cute face & laughter.. He wil turn everythng into a joke.. Such a joker seh! Again i love 2 hangout wit him as he reli noe hw 2 make miie laugh even wen im sad..
My dear Syahiid, he wuznt out wit us fer dinner.. Sowie la, i wuz wrong coz i din asked u along..hee... But anyway, abt dis guy.. He's oso a gud listener.. & veri caring guy fwen.. & not stingy at all.. Wel, nw his in process wit dis gerl..hehe... Juz hope everythng goes well fer u & her kiex? hehe...
My dear Jamal his tha pillar 2 tha O4 actuali.. W/o him i dun thnk O4 will eva exist.. Thnx Jamal..=)
My darling Ninie a childhood fwen of mine.. We've known each otha since pri sch til nw.. Eventho we r not as cloze as b4, i juz wan u 2 noe tat im owaex here 2 hear u out wit u nid miie..=D
Last but not least my dear Arief Sufian, he has owaex been thr wen im in nid.. Fer ur info, we've known each otha since pri 6 but neva tok til wen we were in sec 1.. Tat is oso wen sumthng la happen.. Haha.. Shall not sae it la..=P It wuz reli funny hw dis fwenship cum abt la.. But fer sure i'l luk fer him wen im in nid.. He has owaex giv miie tha advices & gimmie tha lil hope tat life not owaex bad as i thnk.. To tell u all tha truth, i've neva cherish him b4.. But den i realiz wen im down he has owaex gimmie tha advice & hear miie out.. I cn neva imgine mysef w/o him.. & fer tha 1st time eva i've tha guts 2 tok abt him in blog.. Tenqiu so much fer being thr wen i nd u.. Nth cn repay ur kindness.. & im sowie if i eva hurt u b4.. I admire ur patiece all dis while.. I've learn 2 b more patience frm u & mumi..=) I sumtimes gets confuse wit my feelings fer him.. But nemind, shall not bring abt my feelings fer him..
But fer sure I LOVE EVERYONE of 'em! Neva cnt i imagine losing 'em in my life.. They r nxt afta my family.. & they wil stay tat y til im married.. =D Insya'allah guyx..

Shopping & Gift

2009-05-12T00:23:00.001+08:00

Dis r tha things & gift i bought & got lately..

Tha eeyore keychain

Tha "Tinkerbell" deck fer Hyrul

Tha necklaces Frm Mumi!!! I LOVE IT!!

She's Out sobsob

2009-05-09T09:37:00.004+08:00

Hey! Rmbr i told u abt my 1st werking fwen? Her name Puva..rmbr? Afta my 1st dae of werk, miie & Puva din get a chances 2 werk 2gtha again seh.. We were owaex scheduled fer diff shift.. So sad..=(
Den on fri 080509, we lucky enuf tat we were in tha same shift!! Hehe... I miss werk wit her la.. "Puva imy!♥" Hehe... We were doing our morning shift.. So gotta wake up pretty early u c.. I woke up @ 4.15am (Yawwwwwwwwwn).. So slpy.. We met up in tha mrt n proceed 2 novena 2gtha n mit tha rest.. We were arrive @ novena, 6.05, but we slack & most of 'em tek oxygen til it wuz 6.20.. Star karatx sia we all...lol... Wen fer briefing, since i've been doing my aftanun shift lately, im so not fimilair wit tha duties in tha morning.. But im cool coz my fwenx were thr 2 gimmie a helping hands.. Thnx guyx! Make fwen wit a new gerl, Azlin.. Wel, she's not new juz tat we were 1st time doing morning shift 2getha.. Hehe... Everyday werk, everytime got new fwenx! Lol... Kecoh-rable.. Miie & Azlin were statn 2getha.. We tok like as if we knw each otha veri3 long.. Even tha permant staff tot we were childhood fwenx.. Lol.. 1 gud thing abt werking thr is ppl thr r so fwenly..=) By juz a simple "HI,ELLO" we cn communicate easily.. I love it tat wae.. Hehe..
But, sumtimes these ppl cn reli backstab u.. We juz started our werk wen Puva came 2 Nora & sae she wuz TERMINATED!! I wuz super shocked! I mean we juz started werk fer like 3 hrs & recieve a kol frm agent telling her tat she cn go hm.. WTH??? Wen 2 her, asked her tha full detail.. Den Azlin came 2 join tha conversation.. She told us tat sum1 in our morning shift hav "pau toh" 'em.. Haiyo.. Dis ppl ar, juz cnt c ppl hapiie u knw.. But all dis kinda thngs u cnt avoid wen u r werking.. Fer sure thr wil b cases like dis..true hor? Tha rest of us were reli trying our best 2 make Puva chill & laugh more.. Hehe.. Do all sotz of funny & stupid thngs.. Lol..
Rite afta we finish our tha few of us (Azlin, Miie, Yani, Nora, Puva & Baizurah), chill outside ttsh.. While slacking we reli3 had a great laugh @ each otha.. Stupid sia dey all.. Juz tha 6 of us but we sound like thrs 15 over.. Lol.. Den we slowly make a move.. Every1 wuz heading 2wards marina.. Miie, Puva & Baizurah wen 2 orchard 2 acc Puva & at tha same time Baizurah sign contract.. We juz wanted 2 make it clear fer wat reason did dey terminate Puva fer.. Its a stupid reason, & dey even create stories juz 2 kick Puva out.. Stupid ppl.. Since our agent cnt do anithng den its reli gonna b a gudbye..*sobsob* Haix.. Den we walk ard orchard juz 2 luk fer tha STUPID S.A.M. machine!!!! Bodoz.. Plc so big but den limited S.A.M. machine.. Make us tour ard town.. We were laughing & giglings ard tha orchard seh.. Mcm2 kerenah de.. Haha.. Tating sia both of 'em.. Lol.. Tok nonsense onli..but i oso join in tha stupidity.. Hahaha.. We reli had a great laugh seh 1 whole dae.. Frm werk 2 orchard & den hm... Tird gilerrrr BUT i reli enjoy mysef tat dae!
Hope tat dae wil owaex cum..hehe.. Insya'allah..=)

Wat a day! Fuuuuh!

2009-05-05T01:07:00.000+08:00

Ello peeps!!!

Din update ur guyx on my werk hor? Sowie la... Tired seh... Hehehe...
Wel, juz want 2 share wit u guyx my new xperience werking in tat plc!!!! Got super-duper tating xperience n HAPIIE2 xperience werking thr... Hehe..

My 2nd day at werk wuz HELL fer miie! Haha... I mean it wuz reali a bad day fer miie seh..*sobsob* As u know i my earlier post i wrote abt hw my werk goes abt kn... But dis time wuz kinda worse la.. Onli 1 visitor allow per patients.. Coz it wuz aredy orange alert.. So u knw la typical S'porean will make a fuss out of tat.. So ya, i wuz doing counter registratn fer tha visitors.. My counter wuz @ tha veri corner near tha lobby.. My permant stuff buddy wuz Michelle.. Den tha crowd started wen its visiting hrs.. Ard 11.30 ppl r queuing aredy.. Den all tha visitors starts 2 go up, tats wen my counter go haywire!!! Lol..
Those hu juz came up frm B1, B2 & B3 wil juz cum 2 my counter & ask miie all kinds of qns seh!!! I go out off control seh.. All kinds of ppl were toking 2 miie in rude, hi tone manners.. Til i cudnt help & i raise my voice at 'em.. Serious seh..i cnt control animore.. My buddy helped miie alot.. She told miie 2 b more patience wit these ppl... So i juz chill n continue my werk..
Den suddenly a malay family came 2 my counter..wen i wuz serving sum1 else.. So i told 'em in a nice way "Plz wait fer a moment".. Den dey wanted 2 go 2 tha ward as a grp.. I said "Maaf cik, policy skrg 1 patient 1 visitor. Tk bole lebih." Out of sudden i got **** by tha pakcik.. At tat moment i felt like cryig seh.. U noe tha feelg wen sum1 u respect scold u fer no reason??? I reli wuz shock wen he use tat language on miie.. I mean, i noe la u r angry..bt tat does not give u tha ryt 2 scold othas ryt? *sigh*
Tat wuz my so kol 1st victim...thr were afew la.. But i'l tel u 2 main 1 tat reli make miie wanna cry.. Tha nxt 1 wuz wen at nite.. Thr were stil alot of visitors waitg fer thier turn 2 go up or register.. Den came dis aunty n 3 otha ppl 2gtha wit her.. Wanted 2 go 2 tha ward.. I told 'em as usual tha same thing as tha rest.. Den she starte d shouting, scolding & cursing miie & my buddy! Ya ALLAH, i wuz so paiseh! Every1 wuz lukg at miie.. Maluuuuuuuuuunyeeeeeeeeeeee! Gosh! I neva felt like tat b4... I reli wanted 2 cry seh.. Its a gud thng tat we nid 2 use our mask.. No1 cn recognize my face..hehe... All my seniors hu saw wat happen came 2 miie & ask miie 2 go fer my diner.. Wen 2 our pantry, thr were afew of my fwen in thr.. I told 'em everythng seh... Cnnot tahan animore.. Feel so ridiculous seh... Argh!

Wen tha clock strikes 8pm no more visitors r allow xcept fer special cases.. Feel so relief seh wen thr no more visitors.. Afta 9pm we cn slack aredy.. Its a gud thng tat my werkg fwens r cool & funny... Afta werk jek we hav a gud laugh seh... Laugh all tha wae bck til we reach our destinatn..
Alhamdullilah, im reli hapiie wit dis job.. Eventho sumtyms its abit hard but i stil luv tha ppl hu i werk wit!!! Weee~ Its reli nice 2 getta noe u ppl seh! ILY!!!

New Werk Plc, New Ppl & New environment! hehe

2009-05-01T00:47:00.003+08:00

Today start werk at TTSH wit Yana..but we din get tha same shift..
She wus doing morning while miie doing aftanun..*sobsob* Sad seh... Stil we did bump into each otha..hehe...
Reach TTSH waited fer Amy (my agencies).. Gotta knw a fwen.. Her name is Puvanes! So fwenly la she! Haha... She luk like mly seh... Haha... So we told each otha 2 stick 2gtha 1 whole day.. N we reli did..lol.. Sweet la she... I cnt stop laughing wit her seh... She's totaly insane!!!! Lol... N knw sth, saw baizurah thr...! (an old fwen)
While gathering fer briefing, i get 2 knw a guy name Faizal.. Muke de muke matrip.. Hee... Im so bad seh judge him...
He like so alone den start conversation wit him la.. Break tha ice la...hehe... Dunno y but seem like he abit shy la... Wel, juz get 2 knw ma... Bodoz...hehe...
Afta awhile like dare 2 start conversation wif each otha..=D He's a funny guy la... Bubbly! Ehem2! Lain mcm jek dee puji2 nie... LOL.. Crap la seh...=P
Miie n Puva wuz station 2gtha near Faizal.. Psssst!!!!!! I dunno whthr i S.S or wat...hehe...
But seri0us i spot him quite a num of time luking at miie..(curik2 type) Hehehe...
We like asik TER- bertentang mate...lol... Ouh, btw during our break saw him wit mumi nga salam tngn n kiss cheek.. Awwww...so tha sweet... haha...
Newae, my job wuz 2 do registration fer visitors hu r visiting tha patients.. It wuz a mess!! Most visitor wuznt hapiie wit tha new system seh... 2 person at a time... Juz like during tha SARS period... All kinds of characters we hav 2 face... Ish2...terok seh... Havock!!! Lol...
But.....overall it wuz stil fun & enjoying c0z tha ppl im werking wit r thoz "GEREK" ppl...
I enjoyed mysef...! =)

2009-04-30T04:18:00.004+08:00

Pix of 250409

Upinder & Miie

Tha Gerls(part of us)

My Favourite Ladies

Our Snacks & drinks

Our Donuts! Frm Donut Factory! Yummy!

Tha 3 guys

Tha 3 ladies

Tha Concentration Game!

Our 2nd Round of Donuts!

A New Fwen.. =)

2009-04-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

Ello...
Dis time my post wil be abt a new fwen tat i've juz knw..hehe
Wel, tha 1st time he called miie, i din reli wanna tok la... Wanna knw y...its c0z sum1 pas my num 2 him w/o my permission.. I dun like wen sum1 do tat!!! grrr!
So ya, obviously la, i tok 2 him in a rude manner... haha...
To avoid frm toking i told him im bz, anthng juz txt miie..
Den called my fwen 2 cmfrm abt dis guy.. I wuz abit angry la..c0z she pas my num w/o my permission.. She den sae sowie n xplain abt dis guy.. Lol..
I feel bad la.. Dis guy, juz wanted 2 b fwen wit miie..
Im so bad... haha...
Afta tat dae he din even contct miie again la.. Majuk ke? Lol...
I still feel bad abt wat happen i get his contct num n txt him...
No responde.. So juz ignore lorh...
2 my surprise! He contct miie again juz nw at..let's c..erm 9+ miss called frm him..
Den at 11pm sharp he called again.. Lol... Che! I rmbr la seh.. Kwang3...
Newae, we had a chat.. Blablabla...
He's irritating la at times, tpi kinda cute.. Tries 2 make miie laugh...lol..
Newae 2 my new fwen, I "LOVE" YOU SO MUCH! LOL... N "WUD" RELI WANNA MIT YOU 1 DAE!!! WAKAKAKA... Mcm phm...
Thnx ehk fer being tat irritating new fwen! Lol...
K2...enuf... Actuali im thnkful tat u stil wannab fwen wit miie eventho i wuz kinda rude 2 u at 1st..hehe.. Sowie...
Salam berkenalan kiex?=P

Freaking fedup la seh..

2009-04-28T20:42:00.003+08:00

Cried again... Hmm...ystrdy prob not settle yet den cum anotha...
I shudnt b thinking of it la.. But i juz wanna let it out..n share wit u all.. Dis is wat my heart say...

Since we knw each otha u hav owaes lied.
Lying 2 miie is part of ur life rite?
I accpt it.
Y? U ask y?
Simply b'coz i still love.
But nw i cnt say i love.
I mysef cnt define the word love nw.
Im tried of crying n getting hurt.
U used miie all dis while.
I feel so stupid.
Trusted u.
Tat wuz reali not the rite thng 2 do.
I cnt regret on anithng tat had happen.
Juz disapted again by u.

Both of u reli knw hw 2 make use of miie huh?
Hope u guyx r hapiie nw.
Im out. I wunt even bother.
Wateva ur reason is I DUN CARE.

Dear Allah gimmie ur guidance.
Gimmie tha strenght 2 go thru all dis.

Alot of shocking News la..hehe..

2009-04-28T00:00:00.001+08:00

Wen court fer his hearing.. Alhamdullilah, he b 2 mths imprison.. Wen tha lawyer wuz abt 2 sae abt his case, i shred tears.. But wen i heard he'l b in fer 2 mths, i feel much relieve.. Tears of hapiieness fell down my cheeks.. Alhamdullilah.. At tat time only HE knws wat i feel rite nw.. Wit HIS strength im strong..=)

Afta tat go werk til 6.30.. Den felt tat i miss my dear Yana so much so txt her if she free at nite.. Ard 8+ wen 2 her void deck 2 chill.. It been quite awhile since i mit her.. Tha otha tym mit her oso fer interview werk den afta miie gotta rush hm.. We din even get tha chance 2 hav our long conversation seh..*sobsob*
So we tok n tok like tha world is juz ours(lol..sound so tha sweet).. We share our hapiie moments n oso tha sad moments.. Wen i started 2 share wit her abt sth tat had happened recently tat hurt miie badly, knw wat Yana cried!!!! I wuz super shocked! I din xpect a fwen wud cry fer miie on wat tat hurt miie.. No fwen hav eva cry wit miie! I almost shred tears 2.. But i din wanna tha whole thng 2 get worse.. So i hold back my tears.. Hugged her titely! Trying 2 cool thngs down.. All dis while i thot tat she's owaes bz wit her bf n her prob.. But i wuz wrong.. She's tha 1 hu cared abt miie much but she dunno hw 2 show it.. She din wanna scold miie or nagged at miie.. Ouhhhhh....she reli care... Im so wrong abt tha thots i have.. Im such a bad fwen Yana.. 4giv miie Yana...

Den suddenly mumi kol..saying tat AbgWan is home!!!! He's on he's wae home!!!! I got anotha shocked! haha... Mak & adeq wuz aredy on tha wae 2 amk hud 2 fetch AbgWan hm.. I quickly rush hm 2 mit 'em.. Wen i reach hm waited fer 'em 2 reach hm.. Wen he reach hm, syukur tk terkata di hati! But he luk diff.. He gain wt..i thot.. But wen i luk again i saw bruises.. Hmm...den mumi told us everythng.. "De hikmah disebalik sgalenye".. N let HE get 'em bck.. Hmm..i juz pray tha best fer my family..

Ouh! I shud share wit u all sth!!! Ltr nite i wen riding wit a fwen.. U knw wat, he ride SCRAMBLER!!!!! WUUUUHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Atlast, i got tha chance 2 tek scramb tau... Best! Gerek! haha... But unexpected la..met sum1 on tha rd.. Kwang3.. Bocor rahsia dee tau! wakaka... Wel, got la abit of prob thr.. Lol.. But nw i careless..hehe...

Tats all fer todays post la.. weeeeeeeee~ ILY!!!!

NDP Audition!!

2009-04-26T00:44:00.004+08:00

Wokeup early juz 2 go NDP!
Met my cliques (arief, syarif, ramlan, idah, ashalina & syahiid) n 2 more of syahiid poly fwens..
Met tha rest of tha ex-motivators pat Simei ITE itsef.. Kecoh giler seh wen we mit...
Start sh0uting wen i saw yat & man!!! I super-duper miss dem la seh..!! lol.. *hug&kiss* dem like nobody business seh..lol.. Nie la kegilaan Dayah wen i mit my motivator fwens..hehe... Kecoh-rable! hehe...
Guess wat???!!! Saw UPINDER!!!!!! (my best sec fwen) hehe... OMG!!! I cudnt believe it.. I ran 2 him & hug him! Its been lyk 2yrs aredy i din mit him! He's 1 of tha closest fwen of mine in my sec life! Seri0usly seh..imh! lol...
Most of tha ex-motivators were at 1 corner gathering & chatting like nobody business seh... Its reli fun 2 mit dem again! I LOVE DEM LOTX! =D
Afta my audition miie & wanie wen off 2 CGH 2 visit her boifee's mum.. She got "batu karang" (wat izzit kol in eng..hmm..idk la kn..hehe)..
Newae afta visiting, miie & wanie going Plaza Singapura..den her boifee is joining us.. I felt awkard so decided to ask my cliques 2 join.. Like i've xpected, dey wil gimmie all kinda reason 2 join dem instead..so ya, i did join dem..
Mit dem up at East Pt Mall.. Den discuss on whr r we heading nxt..n0e wat? Dey atlast agreed 2 acc miie 2 Plaza Sing..hehe... YeaY!
So took bus n met wanie & boifee bck 2 go 2gtha.. Den blablabla.. Miie & my dear syarif had a lil' chit-chat in tha bus.. "Wel, dearie Ramlan, Arief & Syarif, i apologize upon not cumg on 030409 outing.. I din mean 2 "bubble" k? My youngest sis wuz reli sick & no 1 wuz at hm 2 luk afta her... I reli wanted 2 join u all.. But thr's sth in life, sumtimes u juz gotta scarifice.. My family is my 1st priority.. Rite afta my family r u guyx.. U guyx reli means alot 2 miie seh.. I treasure & cherish u guyx alot.. Hope u guyx cn 4give miie k? Insya'allah no more bubbling..hehe..."
Den reach P.S. Jalan2, blablabla, so on & so for..afta done at P.S, we (miie,ashalina,idah,arief,ramlan&syarif) proceed 2 xplanade 2 chilled.. While otw thr, i suddenly thot of donut.. Craving fer donuts la!!! hehe... So bought dozen donuts, drinks n chocoz juz fer oursef...weeeee~
Juz tha 6 of us chilling at tha basemt..but it wuz like 20 of us la..haha.. We were so loud... We drink 2gtha, eat 2gtha n we had millions of laughter 2getha! FUNFUNFUN! hahaha... N noe wat, tha m0st sweetest thing tat eva happen on tat dae wuz.... WEN WE WERE HAVING OUR DONUTS, WE FEED EACH OTHA!!! SWEEET KN KN KN KN? AWWWWW... Memorable seh... So sad din tek photo during tat pt of tym..='(
I reli had alot of fun seh wit em.. Atleast fer tat moment i cud put awae all my probs.. Thnx fer sharing tha hapiiest moment 2gtha gux.. I reliX100 love u guyx!
Hmm...while i type dis, sth came across my mind..
we cn hav our laugh..but we'l neva n0e wat wil cum nxt fer us..
Life is full of surprises..
U may c em laughing nw, & tha nxt moment dey r crying..
U may c em laughing & laughing..
Deep down onli HE knws..
U cn hav ur laugh..
But u stil nid 2 rmbr tat life is short..
& its HIM hu decide on wats gonna happen nxt..
B4 everythng is 2 late, do wat is rite..
& cherish ur luv ones..

P/s: Pix wil b uploaded s0on..muackx!

Loving This Song

2009-04-10T08:03:00.008+08:00

How Do You Sleep

Sang by Jesse McCartney

It's been about a year now

Ain't seen or heard from you

I been missing you crazy

How do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

It still smells just like you

Damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep (how do you sleep)

Tried my best at movin' on

Have yet to find a girl like you

See things now I didn't before

Now wishing I had more time with you,

How do you stay awake knowing all I do is think of you

All the things we fought about that never will happen again.

If I could just see you

If I had my way I'd come and get ya girl

In your favorite car with the missing top

Remember 'round my way where we used to park

And did all those things to steal your heart.

It's been about a year now

Ain't seen or heard from you

I been missing you crazy

How do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

It still smells just like you

Damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep

It's been about a year now

Ain't seen or heard from you

I been missing you crazy

How do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

It still smells just like you

Damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep (how do you sleep)

Baby, all that I hear from my friends again, again, and again (Complements about you they say)

We saw your girl at the game and damn we gotta say a big mistake by you.

Not only does your body bang

But I miss the conversation too

Tell me that you're getting no sleep, can't think, can't eat, until I come see you

If I had my way I'd come and get ya girl

In your favorite car with the missing top

Remember 'round my way where we used to park

And did all those things to steal your heart.

It's been about a year now

Ain't seen or heard from you

I been missing you crazy

How do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

It still smells just like you

Damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep (how do you sleep)

It's been about a year now

Ain't seen or heard from you

I been missing you crazy

How do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

It still smells just like you

Damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep

It's been about a year now

Ain't seen or heard from you

I been missing you crazy

How do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

It still smells just like you

Damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep (how do you sleep)

8th of Apr

2009-04-08T21:52:00.003+08:00

Met up wit wanie n niza again..haha...
Its reali not easy 2 mit em tau..miss 'em lotx seh... Miss all tha laugh i used 2 hav wen im wit 'em.. Oooh...hw i wish i cud turn back time 2 my ite daes.. *sobsob*
Wel, nw each of us r moving on wit our own life.. Niza wil b going 2 Republic Poly 2 continue her studies.. Alhamdullilah.. All tha best niza..plz dun eva forget miie n wanie aitex beb? We luv u! Wel fer miie n wanie insya'allah we r tekg private diploma 2getha wit my sistaz n werking juz 2 support oursef.. Its reali kinda sad 2 think tat my skooling life has end.. Soon we'l all b bz wit our our stuff n we'l hav lesser time 2 share n hang0ut.. Im gonna miss my life nw.. I n0e time wil make everythng change.. So do i..i hav 2 move on.. Forget tha past..let tha past b a memory fer miie.. Im greatful wit wat i've gone thru all dis while tha laughter, joy n tears, has made miie learn..learn 2 b a beta miie, insya'allah.. I'l try 2 pr0ve him wr0ng! IM NOT THA DAYAH U USE 2 N0E. U DUNNO MIIE. SO DUN JUDGE MIIE AITEX?
Newae let not drag abt tat.. I juz wanna wish all my fwenx hu manage 2 get a plc in poly, work hard guyx, n all tha best! I miss ya'll lotx.. P/s: Wen i got many3 money insya'allah wil organize pit fer us kiex? I try! hehe...
To my best n oni clique i luv, continue 2 work hard in poly..fer my darling Ninie get ur job done wel kiex? Fer Ramlan dear, ti da ns jgn lupe kite!! N fer my special fwen, Im pr0ud tat u get a plc in ite fer higher nitec c0urse. Doaku agar awk tk uat perangai dlu lgi n change ur wae. Study smart k? U wanna go poly den no more playing. Do u very best n i n0e u cn do it. I've faith in u. Hope u dun disapp0int miie dis time, not onli miie, ur family 2.(hopefully)
Wen u eva abt 2 do sth stupid juz think of ur luv 1. They wil b so disappointed if they n0e. U wont wan tat 2 happen kn? So h0pefully u learn frm ur lesson n b a beta person.
Ohya! Not forgetting 2 Saleha, thnx fer tha sincerity 2 b my fwen afta wat happen(dlu2 nye time la.) N im sowie c0z i cudnt b tat gud fwen. I'l try. N dayah doakn pintu hati Leha akan terbuka.
Tats all.
♥ u lotx ppl! Dun eva forget abt miie!*winks*

My B'lated B'dae Celebration at Cash Studio

2009-04-05T04:37:00.003+08:00

040409 tha date wen we aredy plan fer our mthly hang0ut or get 2getha kinda event juz fer our cliques. Im so luking forward fer it. Wanna n0e y...c0z its been a while since we mit up n hang0ut 2gtha. Miss tha old time seh. Every0ne agree on tat date. So i reali th0t tat is tha dae we gonna mit up n enjoy our saturday nite 2getha but afew of 'em cudnt make. Its okey, i still enjoyed mysef on tat nite. Rahmat wuz thr 2 j0in us tat dae juz 2 celebrat my bdae! So sweet kn? haha. Thnx mat, appreciat it lotx! *hugs* So mit up wip apiz, rahmat, ninie n jamal fer kara0ke. Unexpected, they br0ught miie a b'lated bdae cake & sang miie bdae s0ng in tha cash studio rm. N n, jamal & apiz sang a s0ng tat is meaningful 2 my life, 'kau ilhamku'. I wuz s0 t0uch, almost shed tears & sad also at tha same time. Im abit sad tat tha othaz cudnt j0in us in celebrating my bdae. But its okey la. They hav their own reas0n.

Tha 5 of us sang til 7..den we wen 2 hajjah esa cafe at arab st fer our dinner, tat is wen hamli & hyrul join us. Thnx 2 tha b0th of 'em hu stil turn up eventh0 ham wuznt feeling well, n hyrul wuz tired. I reali appreciat it. Den we wen fer shisha at Aminah's cafe near thr. Kecoh giler. We had alot of fun din we? Lot of laughter n smiling. Tenqiu fer making my dae guyx! Muuuuuuuackx!

Tats all fer tha nite! *wink*

Pix of us

More picture at
ôLiL Dee Multiply

Enjoy.

2nd of Apr

2009-04-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

I wonder if hurting miie wuz a fancy thng fer u.
Or meb it aready part of ur life 2 kip hurting miie. Sigh.
Juz a few daes back on my bdae u lied 2 miie.
N n0w u left miie b'hind juz like tat.
Wow! Marvel0us! Great isnt it?
U became 2 sensitive, 2 self-cntred.
U oni thnk abt ur feeling all dis while.
U said u had enuf of miie. Yeah, rite.
All dis while i've been tha 1 being patience wip u.
Wateva u did or say tat hurt miie i juz kip it 2 mysef.
N try my veri best 2 forgive n forget.
I neva thot u wud go dis far. Sigh.
U dun even thnk wen u did tat 2 miie.
N tears juz follow down my cheeks.
Its not bc0z im sad n disappointed in u.
But bc0z i din xpect u 2 d0 tat 2 miie.
Wen u left, all i n0e is 2 end it.
I cnt thnk whr did i do wr0ng til u did tat.
I beg u fer forgivenes but u ignore.
Wen u t0ld miie tha reason y u left, i felt like its tha stupidest thng eva!
All dis while u've been okey wip it. But n0w dis? Sobsob
I cud oni thnk of ending it. I cud thnk of anithng else.

310309 (Disappointed & upset)

2009-04-01T08:07:00.000+08:00

It wuz my special dae! My bdae!
But unfortunately u sp0il it.
It din even feel special at all.
Wanna n0e y?
C0z i n0e tat u were lying abt mitg her rite frm tha start of my dae. Sigh.
But i din wanna juz p0int my fingers on u.
I din hav enuf proof 2 sae tat u were lying.
So i push all tha negative thnking awae.
Thnking tat u were telling miie tha truth juz met u up n we went out wip my mumi n adq.
So i din get tha opp0rtunity 2 ask u anithng.
But den wen i reach a p0int wen i cnt kip it anim0re, i bust out aking u tat qns.
N at last tha truth wuz out!
Damn u! Reali seh...!
I wuz so upset n disapp0inted!
Too disapp0inted tat i sh0wed my attitude on u.
Its MY BDAE???!!!
Dun u get it? Hw cud u b s0 cruel n hurt miie on tat dae?
It suppose to b my special dae. ='(
Do u n0e hw hurting it is 2 n0e u did tat.
I juz feel like crying n sh0uting tat i hate u.
But i cudnt. Sigh.
I thnk i cried 2 much fer u b4 tat rite nw i dun even hav ani tears 2 shed animore.
Sigh. Im s0wie if i hurt u wip my stupidity tat nite.
Im juz lost of w0rds. Acti0n speaks louder den words.

Out wit my gerlfwens...

2009-03-07T14:46:00.000+08:00

060309, it a Friday...

Met up wit my gerlfwens, (Wanie) & (Neeza).. It been awhile since tha 3 of us hang0ut 2getha... Since we got attch 2 different companies during attchment we barely hav time fer each otha.. So we plan fer an outing.. We wen vivo.. Met neeza 1st.. Aru met jek, we got like alot to tok abt..haha... Especially neeza... Well, sum1 juz got attch la seh... 1st time she's in a commitment.. lol... So happie fer her.. Eventho her matair in luk abit "matrip"..but juz doa tk she'l hav happie life wit him.. We mkn den chill n jln2 at viv0.. We tok alot since we hav long not met each otha! Mis 'em lotz seh.. Wel, tats it fer tha dae.. Tek cre!

● Pix of us...

Confused

2009-03-01T03:04:00.005+08:00

You say u love her.
N den u say u love miie.
Which should i believe?
You make miie feel so confuse.
Im more confuse wen our Fwenship is mistaken as Relatnship.
Meb its bcoz we r stil cloze. I mean it okey to thnk tat wae. I dun mind.
But not up to tha xtend to ask us fer more.
We r fwens. Of coz i dun deny i stil LOVE him.
We stil cre abt each otha. But we both r not ready fer serious relatnship n tats y we r like dis.
Plz, dun tok abt it animore. Wen tha tym is ryt den we cn tok abt it.
I wanna concentrat on otha thng den dis.
Im trying my best to move on w/o him.
So plz try to understand my feelings.
We r stil veri young. Im not thnking of ani thng serious xcept fer my studies n career nw.
Mumi help miie make dem understand k?
I dun wanna spoil everythng tat i hav nw.
Wen tha is ryt, everythng wil b okey.
N insya'allah tat tym wil cum.

Dear Allah, ur guidance is all we nid. N we nid ur blessing fer our future. Giv us strength to go thru all tha hurdles tat occur. Amin.

Yana's surprise b'dae!

2009-02-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

230209...

Plan to actuali surprise yana at her plc...tpi die mcm tau lak... She ask miie out go lepak wit her boifee. Thot nk go riding but Hyrul's werking. So i change plan to surprise Yana at macD amk ave 4 near my plc whr Hyrul werk. Atleast Hyrul cn join in tha fun. Hee... Wuz kinda last min. Wuz at granny's plc, go hm tek hp, buy cake, hm again den granny's plc. Den frm granny's plc i hav to go back hm tek tha cake n wait sumwhr near macD. By 10+ Yana & boifee (Ma'ruf) aredy at macD.
Wen tha clock strike 1200, jeng jeng jeng.. I came towards her wit tha cake. We sang her b'dae song.. Hehe.. Twice, coz she's 20 aredy..lol.. Nola, coz 1st tym Hyrul wuznt thr yet.. Took Sum pix, cut cakes n mkn! haha...
We chill thr tok while accompny Hyrul at werk also.. Afta eating tha cake we ate macD meals.. Haha.. Thot we could finish it, but den every1 is full aredy.. Of coz la, each 1 ate 2 big pcs of cake..lol... So chocolaty so more...
We tok n tok til 4 in morning..lol... Had so much fun hangout wit dem.. N Ma'ruf is a funny guy..
N yana beta tek cre of hym yaw.. Last long k korg.. Amin.=)

To Yana, hope u did enjoy ursef as much as i did. Eventho it nth big as u aspect, but dis is all i could..lol.. Insya'allah nxt yr bigger surprise..hee... Happie B'dae again!!
To Ma'ruf, thnx coz u came down n cover2kn..hehe.. Welcum to Yana's life.. Nice knwing u! We'l hangout again so aites? Tek cre of my gerlfwen yg tersyg nie, klau tk, siap la..hehe...
To Hyrul, thnx awk...u help miie in uat plan nie jln? hehe... Thnx fer joining us oso.. Hope u did hav alot of fun hanging out wit us.. N i hope we din bothered u during ur werking tym tau..(:

Pictures of tha dae!
B'dae Gerl!

Tha choco cake!

Cut tha cake.
Ma'ruf & Yana

Miie, Yana & Hyrul

It's Cid B'dae!! Weeee~

2009-02-04T10:25:00.007+08:00

030209~ It's Cid(toyol) B'dae...Plan to hav a small celebration fer her since all dis while we din even thot of celebrating ani1's b'dae as we were so bz wit life...(tats an xcuse of coz..lol) So i plan wit yana(baby) & era(manje) jek... Fer tha 4 of us 2 celebrat her b'dae... It wuz a last min plan.. Hee.. Mastemind of mine..hehe... Juz bored so thot mit dem 2 "lepaskn rindu"... Hehe... Afta work mit ana & tha last son, Azimi jap... Her son is super-duper kiut!! I love hym! Syg seh.. I wanna tek cre of hym like my own son.. He reli make my day.. Weneva i luk at his face, i feel so in love..lol... Nola, tats juz a joke... I dunno hw 2 xplain tat feeling.. Juz love 2 c his cute & adorable face.. "Mcm nk bwk alik jek..haha.. Tk kene maki 2 da nasib..lol..." I oso dunno y i hav tat kind of feeling towards Azimi.. Meb coz i pity hym.. Hmm...he's a premature boy, n he's suffering frm heart problem.. & not 2 say abt his family & whr he cum abt agik.. *sigh* "Kcian kn"? He has 2 kip going fer checkup & so on la... Haix.. Such a small baby has 2 go thru tat.. May Allah owaes protect hym..amin.. Hopefully Azimi grow up 2 be a devoted/pious (lol..thnx kakwany) child unlike .... K nemind, i shudnt mention it... Wen i hav his pix i'l upload.. He's v.fair, ikot muke mak die..=)

Afta tat mit era 1st b4 mit yana & cid at amk fountain.. Cid & yana reach thr 1st... We surprize Cid fer her b'dae wit a small b'dae cake!.. Kecoh2... haha... Juz tha 4 of us jek da kecoh seh...haha... Maklum la, we sun reli mit each otha often actuali.. So wen we mit, we'l definitely hav crazy time togetha.. wee~ I had great tym wit dem.. hehe..
Our pix fer tha dae....enjoys..hehe...

Bufday gerl..! Hapiie bufdae!

Tha 4 of us

Tha mudes (miie&era)

Tha tuas(cid&yan)
Cid & yana
HAPIIE B'DAE CID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Met a Fwen...

2009-01-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

Met Leha (hyrul's x)... We hangout, chill and talk abt alot of things...
Well, actually we are not even in talking terms...we juz hate each otha... N ya tha reason is so obvious la... But nemind now wat's tha reason we were hating or dislike each otha coz that is in tha past... We are now Fwens... Alhamdullilah... N ya that hyrul kip saying that "Bestfwens" nmpk... lolx.. He juz scared that his secret all dis while will be out.. haha..
Actually, ya... All his stupid lies n secret were out... Eventually we gerls talk alot abt wat happen dlu la... N found all this harted feeling came frm hu(penyebab sebenar)... Its kinda funny to think back abt all that... We realise alot.. I realise hw hard life is fer leha.. I wuz shock wen she cry..
Leha, dayah sowie if wat i say giv u an impact on u.. Ouh, i almost tear too wen i c her cry.. But i cn still tahan.. N i really din expect to know tha damn truht la.. Hmm...i shall not say wat... Juz that im totally disappted. I hate to knw it. I cnt accept it. I HATE U _____!!!!!
Argh! Cn i slap that person?? Cn?? Why do i hav to know this? Why? Im not strong. Im not prepared to hear all this. Ya, ppl cn say its tha past. But u wont understand hw i feel. No one will understand. Til nw i cn cry everytime i think abt it. Its still fresh in my head. It will tek miie alot of time to forgive. N ALOT of time to forget! Hopefully i will forget abt it...

A pix of us.. Edited

A True Fwen

2009-01-24T13:01:00.004+08:00

I've owaez try to be her bestfwen.. Tha fwen hu is owaez there in tha ups & downs.. I neva wan her to even think tat she's alone.. No matter hw hard my life wud b, she wil stil be tha priorty.. But she's owaex tekg thngs fer granted.. Hmm...she hurt miie so much wen she neglect miie.. She choose to go wit that guy fwen of her instead of miie.. That guy is juz a guy hu she juz knew... Haix.. How could she? Am i not her fwen? Or am i over reacting? Hmm...meb... Meb she find miie irritating or sth... Idk... Nw we r not even in talking terms.. Wonder y.. Hmm... I miss her so much.. Miss tha crazy time we use to hav.. Miss our nonsense.. Haix.. I miss everythng...

2008-12-16T03:46:00.001+08:00

151208....tha day he came back frm haj! weee~ Im so hapiie...! Nth cn explain dis feeling.. Early morning wen i woke up, tha 1st i thing tat came across my mind wuz hym.. I washup n get dress in my fav colour PINK n put on a WIDE smile on my face b4 i left hm...=)) Bersyukur ku dlm hati ini, hari yg dinanti2 telah pun tiba.. =D

While waiting fer hym, sis n mom 2 at tha arrival hall, my heart ♥ beats v. fast.. I cnt explain dis feeling.. Like rojak man..haha.. All kinda feeling inside.. Tha moment i saw hym, tha only words in my mind "alhamdullilah".. Syukur he n family reach s'pore safely..=)

I cnt deny tat i really miss hym badly.. I almost shed tears of joy wen i saw 'em.. Their smile sh0w everything... N at tat v.m0ment i cudnt st0p smiling... I juz dunn0e hw 2 sae dis But im juz s0 hapiie..m0re den hapiie! haha...

Thank u ALLAH! Doa kami smue Kau kaburkn.. Alhamdullilah. =))

B4 leave hm...

Again

Miie n bastie in tha bus

Pix blurr..my hand were shivering..haha
Welcome back pakji!

♥ Dayah

woriie...

2008-12-11T04:23:00.002+08:00

I cnt slp....
I kip thnking...
Argh! Y cnt i st0p?

Jgn ikot kn hati dayah...
Everythng wil b okey...
Dun worie..

Ya allah...
Berikn la aku kekuatan...
Tenangkn la hati ku ini...

Fishing

2008-12-10T21:40:00.003+08:00

071208, wen fishing wit abahyus, cik zam, financee cik zam n 2 otha of abah yus fwenx..

We wen fishing on boat! Tats my veri 1st time on boat seh..! haha... We fish in tha middle of tha sea!! Kecoh pe? I hav neva done tat b4.. I mean fishing on a b0at la... Jakun beb jakun! haha... Kinda scary wen dere's big wave seh... Panic jap gerl2.. My 1st trial i got a big fish, n rare!! Loook..............

Kecoh giler... Haha... Tha feeling wen u caught a fish is so mcm..."wow"! hahaha... It din stop, more n more fish we caught... Miie & financee cik zam caught more big fishes...haha... Looks like tha ladies are doing well here...lols... The 3 gentlemen got so pissed off...haha... I cant believe tat i din hold tha raw prawn! Ewwwww! At 1st tat wuz my feeling but afta awhile, i got used to it... We fish til la evening... Wen we went back we reach jetty ard 7+ but it wuz reli v.dark like 10 g2... Seram dok.. I got tat eeri feeling seh... We hav to walk thru dis reservior to get out...it wuz super dark la... Cikzam had to on his small torch to guide us... I wuz holding abahyus hand tidely seh... Gemgam sekuat2 nye... Seram beb... We took cab hm... Reach hm jek, washup.. Tot n go hm...sok kn hari raye haj...but i slept til nxt morning... N i wuz late fer korban... haha... Got nagged by tha kakakx thr...haha...

Lucky miie

2008-11-25T21:01:00.004+08:00

Wen to watch wdlnds football match at jln besar stadium wit Mira, Adawiyah, Ilah n abahyus go watch soccer. Well, got no plans after work so thot juz g0 n watch jela. Hehe.. Juz my luck masok jek nmpk RAVELINA workg tha opp0site of us.. Kalang-kabut nk amik gmbr ngan d0rg...haha...
To0k pix with tha wh0le grp.. Den wen seated rase mcm nk amik again wit dem.. *gatalx* haha... Miie, adaw n ilah wen back 2 c dem... Took photo again as a grp den solo wit NAZA!!! haha... Weeee~

We den went back to our seats... Im not tha type yg into soccer la actuali... Dunno y i go... Kinda stupid but tkpela since da go, duduk n c jela... While sitting n watching to i observe tha surrounding, ppl ard yg support wdlnds in... I noticed alot seh.. But dun wanna say la.. Ti org ckp i to abt ppl, but diri sndiri tk tau nk jage.. Well, i juz kip everythng to mysef... I juz hope ppl wil change fer tha beta.. Insyallah.. And fer miie, watching wdlnds soccer match is definitely not my thing to do n fer sure im not gg animore...hehe... Juz not tha plc i wanna b la...

Newae dis r pix of miie wit revelina....

2008-11-18T00:10:00.002+08:00

Time and date of Mecca

Praying tat everything moment past w/o miie thnking of it so much.
Its only tha 3rd dae. I've recieved tha msg saying he has reach mecca safely. Alhamdullilah.
Moga awk n family dpt haji mabrur.
Menanti.

He Left 151108, He Came Back 161108

2008-11-16T13:41:00.005+08:00

He left on 15/11/08 wit his kakak n mum to haj..at 1930hr his flight left s'pore. Wuz late n cudnt hav my last word b4 he left. But manage 2 salam kak ain n his mum b4 dey left. Kinda syahdu bile negok both crying. Wen i turn 2 luk at hym he wuz crying, tibe2 sebak lak hati ini. Haix. I hold back my tears so tat i wunt cry infront of hym. N i manage to. But wen he kol 2 tok 2 miie b4 he go off, i cudnt help it but 2 cry. Menitis juga airmata ini membasahi pipi. Tiada apa yg terluah melainkn tangisan ku. Last gudbye wuz den. I shed my tears. Cudnt bare to think tat he'l be awae.
But i noe i hav 2 be strong. Its juz 1mth he'l be awae.

To thnk alik, ABAH YUS is awae fer 1yr agik lame kn? Hmm...eventho i avoid mysef frm crying i cudnt help it. Its unbelievable tat i cry. Tibe2 i feel lyk wateva happen in tha past is happening again. Tpi alhamdullilah afta awhile i cool down. Kinda sad bile he not ard. I cnt deny tat he's oso been thr weneva i nid sum1. I neva feel alone wen im wit hym. Kinda use to having hym ard. But tkpela. Got to be strong.

Thot i wud still be abit to upsad. But...jeng3..!!!!! SURPRIZE! ABAH YUS IS BACK FER A 1 MTH BREAK!! I wuz so surprize...! I din n0e tat he wuz cumg home. Alhamdullilah Tuhan telah memakbulkn doaku. Dgn cpt doa ku terkabul. Amin. Tiada apa yg dpt ku luahkn. Dlm kesedihan yg ku tanggun dgn tibe2 dtg kebahagian. =') Airmata ku jatuh lgi ke pipi. Tears of joy. Rupe2 my family almost all da tau except fer miie n adaw. Kononnye nk ajk jln2 pat airport la. Tau2 Abah yus kol us, saying tat he's aredy in S'pore. Melinang airmata. But dis tym tears of joy. =)

"Bila hati sedih, tidak bermakne slamanya sedih. Bila bahagian, tidak akan slamanya bahagian. Bersyukur lah dgn apa diberi mahupun keperitan. Ini smua cabaran hidup." Dis is wat an uncle hu luk alike mcm arwah abah told miie. Til nw i cn neva ferget it. N sharing it wit all. Insyallah im cn be strong to go thru all. Amin.

Moga Hyrul n family sampai mecca dgn slmt.
Dan kembali dgn slmt. Amin.

Busy Lateli

2008-11-01T23:43:00.007+08:00

Its been awhile since i update my blog...
Miie actuali not tha type yg suke tulis blog..mls...haa...
I onli write wen i feel i wan..haha...i more tha type yg more 2 write my feeling in diary den in blog la...n0t use 2 blogging...

Wel, nw da werk lyk got no tym 2 write blog la...hehe... Lemmie tell u abt my attchmt 1st kiex? Here goes...
1st 3 daes of work wuz so hectic seh...alot of thngs nid 2 learn n do...tiring giler...
Do office work in logistic company isnt easy as i thot..hmm... Im doing export in ocean... N in ocean we gotta do everythng frm A-Z..unlike air.. Dey hav diff departmt...
Argh!! So memeningkn seh! Hmm...tkpela...agik 3 bulan jek.. Must stay strong...
Nw already going 3 wks at work...nw i realize tat in logistic u cn juz memorize everythng coz u nid 2 lurv it 2 learn it...hmm... N nw i n0e whr im heading nxt afta my ITE...alhamdullilah...
Juz kip praying yg sgalenye berjln dgn lacar...amin...
Tha ppl in my compny okey2 la... De yg bole bbl de yg ntala ape nk ckp...
But i n0e everythng tek times...n i hope everythng were goes past juz lyk tat...
For nw wat i wanna do is juz finish my work dere n get out!!! hahax...
Nasib baik got cherly, n fitri in tha same company as miie...so no wories la...hee...
Tat 2 daes wen Fitri din cum mendak...haha...
Its a gud thing tat we hav attchmt... We getta mix ard wif our logistic badge...
Actually our badge kn mcm anti-social tau...kite tk pnah mix ard wif otha class of logistic... Nk kate karet p0n de arh...haha... C wen i start attchmt, i came 2 n0e Fitri, Ct n aishah frm LR... Smue tk sombong kes bole bbl n gerek ppl... Pelik...we in tha same lecture but we dun tok..den wen it cum 2 attchmt aru smue nk bbl... Funny la wen we tok or think abt it...hehe...
N normally lunch tym wil mit afiq, naufal n pat..hehe... Coz their workplc dkt2 ngan mine. So everytime c 'em, i'l b so hapiie.

Im missing wanie n niza so much seh...no more "Laugh 1 whole dae", no more toking crap, n no more kutuk-ing org la... I miss la tat seh.. Haix.. Wen will i mit 'em.

P/s: Wanie, niza, we shud mit up so0n seh..! GUE KANGEN SAMA KAMU!

*Hugs & Kisses*

Salam Rindu,

Dayah

2008-10-12T11:14:00.002+08:00

Mariah Carey
That Chick
Bye Bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes byAnd soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you

[ Mariah Carey Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]
(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up highWe will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

2008-10-07T23:39:00.003+08:00

Got tha chance to tek spark!!!!

Hahaha...1st tym so kekok she...lol...

I wuz s0 slenge bile tompang spark...langgar sane, langgar cni...lol

Hyrul da ktawe2 seh negok kn miie....malu jap...hehe...

Wel, i asked hym 2 accompny miie go kubur...c0z im missing arwah abah...

So kite mit up @ ard 5...c0z he wait til mama kuar uma aru die kuar...i noe its late, but i juz wanna ziarah kjap 2 lepaskn rindu...

Bile kite ampai it wuz lyk 6+ goin 7...carik abah nye kubur agik...to0k us so long 2 find...wanna n0e y... c0z abah nye die tulis name in bahase jawi jek..tkde rumi...

aku sedekah kn surah al-fatihah sbnyk mungkin...mase tidak membnarkn aku berlame disitu...da masok waktu magrib...s0 miie n hyrul p0n wen off....

Kononnye nk mamam pat b0on lay...pusing nye pusing tk umpe..s0 t0ld hym to juz get out of jurong n go sumwhr jela...

Ouh! btw, while nga looking fer the wae 2 bo0nlay, his spark stalk by itsef 2 kali wen we were lyk in tha center lane!!! tk ke gilerr??? Malu seh... Nasib baik tk kene horn seh... Fuh! Perangai seh...

Kite end up mamam @ t0a pay0h, mamam kfc jek...hehe...

2008-10-06T15:00:00.004+08:00

1st dae raye
2nd dae raye
3rd dae raye

Walaupun rase kehilangan namun im still hapiie wif my raye celebrati0n wif my otha cuzzen!
Dey neva fail 2 make miie n my family smile...
Tho deep down i kwn each of us feel sad without abah, abg iwan n cikyus 2 celebrat wif us.
Thnx 2 all my makcik2, pakcik2, abg2 n adq sedarex especially busukah, wirda, makenon n cik bedah hu neva fail 2 encourage us n advice!
Not fergettin makya n fam, cikpau n fam..
Dayah syg smue!!!
"Take as a part of life kakyah..ppl cum n go..wen its tym 2 let go we hav 2 b strong..u r neva alone, we r here wif u", thnx fer tha advice wir!
i noe hu 2 luk fer wen im upset nw..=')

Salam aidilfitri smue...!!!!
Salah silap dayah harap dpt dimaafkn...
Dayah hanya manusia biase tk lari dri kesilapan...
Dayah myusun 1o jari manis dayah niememohom kemaafan...
Moge kite bertemu di syawal ini...
Salam syg dari Dayah!

Minal Aidilwal' fa'izin!

Hypocrite

2008-10-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

Ouh! U r so gud in faking everything huh?

Tok abt ppl's mistake n bla bla bla..bullshit...

Eh, sendiri mau ingat la gerl...

Say dis person is hyp0crite? Wat abt u huh? Lo0k at ursef in tha mirror la b4 u start toking abt othas... Cermin diri sendiri 2 sbelum mgate org... Wat so eva la...

Ouh! I fergot u're angel! U dun make mistake..u onli fergive ppl fer their mistakes they hav d0ne 2 u! *stupid* step baik jek...

Wat so eva la kn...

Juz rmbr 1 finger u p0inting 2 othas, tha otha 3 r p0inting at u back...!

Wondering hu is dis? Sendiri mau ingt arh... ha...!

Iftar wif fwenx

2008-09-21T03:11:00.002+08:00

Jamal n miie
RamLan n miie
Incomplete O4..hmm..
Miie, Lan n Shafiq
Todae, 200908...i din plan to go out..thot of stayin at hm n clean my hm... Den Ramlan msg sae he's bored at hm alone... So i ask hym whthr he wans to accompny miie breakfast outside..he agreed wif it...wen i wuz abt 2 kol shafiq 2 ask hym 2 j0in, he kol miie aredy...haha... (Mcm tau jek...hehe..)..
So miie, Lan, Shafiq n his fwen Fir went 2 geylang to breakfast...we breakfast at "Teh Tarik Coffeeshop"... Shafiq n Fir arrival 1st...den miie n Lan... Nk seat, i wanted to seat beside shafiq n infr0nt of miie Lan BUT Fir sat opposite of miie... Haiyo... I paiseh aredy...c0z im n0t used 2 eat wif tha guy i juz mit n he facing miie...haha... I eat v.sl0wly....haha...shyshy...
We den walk2 ard geylang...met quite a number of our fwenx...haha... Afta awhile jamal join us den ira n gang...hehe...
Afta rounding tha bazaar, we got tired n plan 2 'lepakx' singPost... Ira n fwenx went off 1st... Left miie, Lan, Jamal, Shafiq n Fir..
Ard 10.40 we wen off frm dere...miie, Lan n Jamal tok 76 hm... Ouh, b4 we wen off, Fir went off aredy...
Pssssssssssssssssst! i kinda admire Fir la!! Shhhhhhssssssssss! Dun tell shafiq...haha...

Nxt few daes of work...

2008-09-20T02:48:00.000+08:00

Kai Teng
Joel
Tats hw joel slp..haha..
N finally Angie
Tha nxt few daes of work, every morning i reach sk0ol, tha K1 n N1 kids will greet miie... Early morning my mo0d cn neva be down bcoz of 'em..=)
I gotta mit 1 of tha toddlers n 1 more of N1 students, tat is joel n angie(respectively)...
Dey were so cute... Wat i noe, joel lyk 2 slp in a weird position, n he's an attention seek..BUT! I STIL LURV HYM...hahaha...
Angie is 1 of tha N1 students...she's oso talkative, but she more fwenli den kai teng...
So dis 3 kids every morning wen i cum dey hug miie, especially kai teng n angie.. I so in lurv wif 'em...hehe... Dey r so cute n adorable..neva fail 2 make miie smile...=)
N gues wat im missing 'em ryt nw... lol... Cnt wait 2 go 2 work!! weeeeee.....

Working...

2008-09-18T01:52:00.000+08:00

I start work on mon, 150908 at 9.30 am...im working wif kak Ct at childcare center as a relief tcher...

Atlast miie got tha chance to work in childcare n teking care of tha kids...haha... Alhamdullilah...thnx to kak Ct hu recommen miie dere... I've owaes wanted to work dere...hehe...
My v.1st dae i wuznt given a specific work...u wuz told to luk ard 1st n learn... So i juz nid to help tha tchers wen dey nid...
My 1st dae wuz kinda funni...wen i 1st enter tha sk0ol, tha kids lyk "Wah, got new tchers ar.." Den 1 of tha K2 kids sae "Why dis tcher so pweety ar?"... I couldnt stop smiling seh...hahaha... Den g0es tha K1 kids...wen dey saw miie dey were lyk "Eh, got new tcher"... Den wen i enter tha class, all tha bys surrounded miie but dey din ask miie my name, instead dey ask my sis...haha... Dis kids reli cn make miie smile...=)
Den i wuz helping tcher melati wif her work n 1 of her students were in class, tat is kai teng... She's cute but super talkative seh...haha.... Wen she start, she wont stop... Gosh! haha....
Wen tcher melati n tcher fina hav 2 go hm, i luk afta kai teng... She nag n nags n continue nagging...hahaha.... Sumtimes i juz couldnt understand a thing tat she mumble abt... lol...
Slowly @ 5+ tha kids r going hm...miie n kak Ct n tcher dapne wuz tha oni tchers left... We did sum cleaning n den wen hm...

080908

2008-09-08T01:48:00.003+08:00

Todae, its been 100 daes since arwah abah left us wif juz his memories...and 8 daes of fasting...
Counting tha daes to raye scares miie...im not prepared fer tha situation tat im gonna face...
Celebrating our raye without abah n cikyus reli doesnt gimme semangat...
How i wish i cnt turn back tym...but tat is juz wat im thinking...nth cn change wateva tat is past...
I noe n im aware...but..haix...
U c miie smile doesnt mean deep down i hapiie too...
I fake dis smile so tat u wont c tha pain im gg thru...
N lukg at my makcik2, n pakciks sumtimes juz bring tears to miie...
Y cnt everything be like last time? Y must it happen nw?
We use to b so hapiie..but nw......hmmmmmm....

Nite cycling

2008-09-06T15:04:00.005+08:00

Last nite miie n yana last min plan 2 g0 cycling...crazy plan seh...

We onli hav 1 bike...s0 we thot we cud rotate 2 cycle n 1 hav 2 "tompang" la... But at tha void deck we were super-kecoh seh... 1st yana tried 2 cycle wif miie sitting at tha back, but she cudnt...we almost fell seh...haha... Den i tried 2 cycle, while yana seats, but i cnt even move tha bike seh...lol! Terpekik2 kite0rg mlm2 bute 2...haha...

So yana tried again..and she manage 2 cycle... So no choice she gotta cycle miie all tha 2 ave 4 c0z i wanna g0 hm fer awhil...pancit seh die...lol... Agik2 we were going up hill seh...haha.. Kecian yana... Kecoh giler...! At my void deck we decided 2 ask our fwen hu cn pinjam their bike...almost all our fwen hu stayed amk we ask...lol...(sanggup)... Den kak lin sae she got bike but tayar pancit da... s0 we both gotta cycle back 2 ave 10 to get tha bike...i mean yana has 2 cycle...haha....

kecoh2... Wen we reach kak lin's blk yana wuz aredy sweatin out seh..l0l... Den kite push tha 2 bikes 2 shell 2 pump tha tyre...den we went back 2 my granny's plc 2 chill jap..
After lyk 30min chill, we went out 2 continue cycling..haha...crazy us...
We planned 2 cycle back 2 ave 4..while on tha wae dere...guess wat!! I fell frm my bike! Ouch!!!!
I co0l...i hurt my legs...few bruises... ouch..! We stop by at macD central 2 clean my wound... (PEDIH!!!!! but tahan jek..) Den continue our journey 2 ave 4.. Grab sum drinks n yana bought ice-cream fer hersef... We chill awhile...den we went hm...
No choice but we hav 2 g0t our own wae frm central onward... I went 2 tha rite while yana 2 tha left...we bid our gudbye n went off...
Reach granny's plc, den washup, sahur den after tat slp!!!
Went i wokeup dis morning, both left n my right legs were abit swollen..sobsob...
Overall, i had fun last nite! Thnx 2 yana i wuznt thinking of my prob...peace fer tha moment...!

300808 Picnic!!

2008-08-31T13:11:00.000+08:00

Sum pix of mine wen we @ ecp...

Miie n i forgot her name..o0ps! hehe

Idah n miie
Nice view
I like dis pix
I soak my legs in..hehe

Woke up @ 9am juz 2 g0 peninsula plaza to get ho0dy wif hyrul...cn u believe it?? Juz bc0z he wans 2 bergaye in white, sanggup seh pgi2 angun n kuar g beli h0ody puteh..! Haiyo... haha...

So we b0ught h0ody fer oursef.. His white n mine br0wn... I wanted pink but pink no more size la...(sobsob) Den afta tat rush back 2 amk c0z g0nna miit tha rest @ amk inter 2 go ecp...

Wen we reach my granny plc, he rmbred tat he wans miie 2 put on his lens fer hym..LOL... So t0ld hym 2 juz park his bike @ granny's plc n tngal kn brg2 pat uma nnk jek..

At granny's plc, again i gotta put in tha lens inside his eyes... haha.. Funny seh... (Bkn nk blaja tau, suro org pkai kn...leg0ng! haha) We were late s0 we decided 2 miit tha rest inside 135 bus itsef... Inside tha bus every1 slpt..haha... Muke satu2 super tired.com seh... hehe...

Wen we reach ecp, met justin, syarif n 1 of tha chinese gurl..i f0rget her la...s0wie..hehe...

Strait awae tha gurlx get change, tha guyx lak da start main balls...

Afta change, gurlx chill n play uno wif kak ana...kec0h seh ngan kak ana.. Gerek.com!!! hahaha...

Da pnat main uno, we play "BLUFF"!!!! LOL... Its all abt lyin man...! Kecoh-rable...!

Lan s0 cannot play dis game la... He kip laughin wen he lies...haha... So easy to spot him seh... Hahahahaha.... Idah lak kip mcm ragu2... Lol... Gerek la play dis game wif em... mcm2 kerenah!

Tired of playin card...we "terjun"!! haha... wat i mean is we jump into tha sea!! weeeeeeeeee...

We were so stick to tha sea seh... Berjam2 kite berendam seh...hehe... We t0ok sh0t of us jumpin in tha sea..but s0wie tha pix r not wif miie... Wen da upload i upload it here aitex?

280808

2008-08-28T23:48:00.001+08:00

I send yana to werk coz she wuznt feeling well..s0 acc0mpnied her 2 werk...

Reach vivo, i hang ard dere fer sumtime...den wen to tamp 2 mit arief...he juz finish werk so dcided 2 mit hym n hav lunch wif hym...

Fer tha 1st tym he wuz late n i hav 2 wait fer hym..(nasib baik 1st tym...lol...)

We were so undecisive..we cudnt decide on wat 2 eat n whr 2 eat....haha...

I ask hym, he ask miie back...b0le jdi giler tau...hehe....

Afta eat go walk2 at tamp mall itsef...had great tym wif hym...

He's able 2 cast all my sorrows...he neva fail to make miie smile seh...xD

Everytime i mit hym, i cn juz put all my prob aside..

He's owaes been dere wen i nid hym...

He's trueli a gudfwen to miie...neva i wanna lose hym in my life...

To arief: Thnx sooooooo much fer owaes being thr n understandin miie! U've made miie realize alot.. U're a GREAT FWEN!!=D Thnx fer being my fwen! ILY! hehe

2008-08-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

Haix...he love her...i love hym...

wat is dis? y do i still love hym??

wat make hym so special??

since tha dae we r together til 2dae, i cry everytime i c sorrow in his eyes...

n rite dis veri moment im still cryin...

wat am i 2 do?

it juz s0 hard 2 forgt hym n let hym go...

wen will all dis end?

Juz wat i feel...

2008-08-26T23:35:00.003+08:00

Its a tues...normal, g0 sk0ol...

I oni g0t 1 les0n..tat is frm 12-2pm jek...pas tu cn g0 hm... In class we oni did revisi0n coz we r done wif our studies n juz gettin prepared fer our exam nxt wk...

Lukg @ tha calender...nxt wk da puase... Hmm...i wuznt reli lukin forward fer dis...

Everytime i thnk of it, i'l start cryin... Dis yr its reli g0nna be diff wit0ut arwah abah n cikyus...

I cnt deny yg cikyus brade jauh tpi dkt di hati... But still, arwah abah aru jek pergi, n cikyus la tha pakcik yg berry cl0z 2 miie... He's like my 2nd father... Its reli diff tanpe de nye 2 insan yg ku syg disisi utk myambut bulan yg mulia...

Apakn lagi bile memikirkn di hari raye ti....tk dpt ku curahkn rase hati ini.... Begitu cedih skali....

Sebelum pergi sk0ol, cikyus de ckp "raye bwk laptop k? cikyus nk negok muke korg satu in bju raye korg..." wen i heard tat, my tears flows d0wn my cheeks... Begitu sayu suare cikyus pat ph0ne...='(

I miss hym n arwah abah...='(

Btw, tha s0ng tat u guyz r listenin to, its a s0ng wanie gave to...she sae its related to my love life...hmm....

New luk...

2008-08-25T23:27:00.003+08:00

Tha pix of hym....

He's gettin reli b0red..hehe

My new luk! Nice?

250808

Wokeup late n din go sko0l... I wokeup ard 1....hehe....
So i accompanied yana 2 poly 2 tek 'mc'.. she oso tk dtg sk0ol...lols....
Afta tat ard 4 wen we r done @ p0ly, i went bck 2 granny's plc...
Den i dcided 2 get a fringe cut...hehe...
Called hyrul n asked if he cud accompnied miie while waitg fer his bike 2 b repaired...since he's bike is @ tha industrial park area, he sae okey...
Wen we reach tha salo0n, i stil cudnt dcide on wat hair style 2 do...get hyrul opinion n den snip snip...hehe...
While he wuz waitinf fer miie in tha salo0n, he get b0red n t0ok ph0tos of himsef...using my hp...lols...
Wen im done we wen 2 hav our diner @ tha coffeesh0p nearby...den t0ok his bike n wen hm...
Thnx awk fer tha company...

230808=Appreciation Tea

2008-08-24T17:10:00.004+08:00

The time which every motivators has been waiting fer! Appreciation tea!! yea...!
230808, wuz tha last tym we m0tivators mit as a motivators... so sad.. but it okey...
Okey, let's start frm morning aitex...here g0es....
I wokeup earli c0z i've g0t al0t of plan on 23...1st i g0t 2 g0 hm n tek my digi cam, 2nd mit seha 2 gt grey shawl, 3rd teach hyrul hw 2 put on c0ntct lens, 4rd makeup saiidah, 5th get mysef dress n lastli mit arief, syarif, lan n syahiid...dis wuz my plan fer tat dae..So i gotta rush 2 gt in time n mit arief, syarif, lan n syahiid...
it wuz in a mess...s0 afta i tek my digi cam, n shawl, mit saiidah @ bust0p 2 my granny's plc...
while she wuz waiting fer miie 2 makeup n get dress, hyrul came...(psssst..wen i wuz dressin up n makeup it wuz s0 kec0h...miie n my cuzzen wuz y like "dis 1 nice, no dis 1"...hahaha...)
Den done wif my makeup, i WUZ suspose 2 teach hyrul hw 2 put on tha contct..BUT....it ended up miie putting tat contct inside his eyes...kec0h... My aunt n cuzzen were laughin @ us seh...haha.... kekek... well, it wuznt hard 2 put it on as he's reli obidient...hehe...
Well, afta tat i get change...n my lil' cuzzen wuz s0 kepo..nk set my hair la...kec0h uh die...
org lain yg nk kuar, org lain yg kec0h2...hehe...
By time im d0ne wit everything it wuz late aredi...so we have to tek tha cab 2 redhill cc...n im s0 s0wie wanie coz i cudnt mit u up @ redhill mrt...
Wen we reach tha cc, arief, syahiid, lan n syarif oso juz arrive...we alight frm tha cab same tym...haha....mcm jnji jek....sehati,sejiwe la...hahas...
Den in tha theater hall, we salam every1, hug la....kec0h mcm beribu tahun tk umpe...padehal aru 1 wk...haha....
We watch a small c0ncert den we have a time fer us 2 spend wif our clusters fer tha last time...so sad tat my otha 3 mentors cudnt b wif us fer tha last time.. hmm... Afta tat we mkn!! n @ tha same time to0k sum photos...
Den all of us plan 2 g0 xplanade 2 watch fireworks... At tha bustop we smpt tek mani2 pix frm 1 corner 2 anotha corner...hahaha.... Every1 wuz lo0kin @ us....
Half of us board bus 14, n tha otha half board anotha bus, whch i dunno wat bus...hee..
Inside tha bus p0n smpt tek pix...tk pnat kite0rg ehk...
We alight at dis bustop n gotta walk to suntec...my leg wuz aching, s0 i walk bare footed all tha wae 2 suntec...haha... i cudnt believe i did tat.... lol
Tha guyz hu were wit us went fer their prays, s0 while waiting we chill @ b2 whr we usuali lepakx afta our training...n wait fer tha rest 2 cum... While chilling we to0ks pix n oso play wif helium gas...haha...
Ard 8+ den hyrul call n tell us 2 mit 'em @ merlion...s0 tha rest of us walk 2 tha merlion..
At tha merlions while waitin fer tha firewoks...wat else wud we do...tek pix again!! hahaha....
Afta fireworks, arief n saiidah gotta go...tha rest of us walk 2 tha xplanade..den we were dciding whr 2 g0...atlast, onli miie, hyrul, lan, syarif, syahiid n 1 of tha chinese gurl (i fergot her name..hehe) wen 2 m.sq 2 mit ninie n jamal n hafiz(ninie's nephew)...we br0ught sum mkn fer oursef n g0 mkn @ b2 xplanade again...hehe... Afta mkn we wen hm...
At amk left oni miie n him walkin 2 my granny's plc...again i walked bared footed c0z i cnt tahan tha pain seh...den came @ dis particular plc, it wuz so wet so i thot i put on my heels juz fer awhile, but he told miie tat he'l carry miie...i thot he wuz juz jokin... But no, he reli did carry miie all tha til we reach anotha blk n put miie down...(sweet kn..hehe) All tha wae to my granny's plc he wuz so helpful n caring seh...im so touched... N he carried miie twice seh..haha...(he sae i wuz heavy..lols...*blushblush*) Wen we reach my granny's plc we had a small tok...but while he wuz tokin i fell a slp on his shoulder!!! lols...buruknes... haha... So den he walked miie 2 tha door n went off wen i entered hm...=D
HOME SWEET HOME...
I had fun tha whole dae...=))

Juz memories of you left

2008-06-17T02:38:00.003+08:00

You were s0 full of life, always smiling n carefree.
Life loved u being a part of it, and i loved you being a part of miie.
You could make anyone laugh, if they were having a bad day.
No matter how sad i was, you could take the hurt away.
Nothing could ever stop you, or even make you fall.
You were ready to take on the world, ready to do it all.
But ALLAH decided he needed you, so from this world you left.
But you took a piece of all of us, our hearts are what you kept.
Your seat is now empty, and its hard not to see your face.
But please always know this, noone will ever take ur place.
You left without warning, not even saying goodbye.
And i cant seem to stop asking the question why.
Nothing will ever be the same, the halls are empty without your laughter.
But i know you're up in heaven watching over us and looking after.
I didnt see this coming, it hit miie by surprise.
And when you left this world, a small part of us died.
Your smile could brighten anyone's day, no matter what they were going through.
And i know everyday for the rest of my life, that i only love you.

on daddy's dae...

2008-06-17T01:02:00.002+08:00

Sun, 150608, it wuz father's dae, miie, kak CT, mumi, adqx, cik mimi, cik bedah, mak enon, cik zul, cik yus, busu, afiq, izzat, khalil n wirda n nenek g kubur.. We celebrat fathers dae by ziarah kubur arwah abah, arwah atuk, arwah nenek n arwah pakcik... its kinda sad c0z cudnt go down n ziarah kubur arwah abah.. i cud oni c frm a distance.. after visitin all tha kubur, we go mkn @ jurong west... den cik mimi send us hm naik lori...its kinda sad tat dey stil hav their dads 2 celebrat father dae, while fer miie i juz gotta pray fer my arwah abah frm far..)':

ya allah, berikn lah aku kekuatkn utk melalui sgala nie..
setiap titisan airmata ibu membuat ku lemah..
berikn la aku smngt, ya allah...

shut ur mouth!

2008-06-11T18:07:00.000+08:00

dis is fer u baby..
if u r not hapie wif miie u r owaex welcum 2 cum n tok 2 miie...u dun hav 2 post comment in fwenster juz 2 tok abt miie. Damn u!
if u think i stil got feelin fer ur b'luved, s0wie ckit..aku tk heran la...
u n ur b'luved bf cn buzzed off frm my life..! b0th of u juz lurv 2 hurt ppl huh? its fancy ryt 2 make ppl feel angry n play wif their feelings?
wel, thnx la...u cn tel ur bf he has d0ne wel 2 hurt miie..i think he cn evn win an award tat sae "tha greatest heartbreaker" n thnx 2 hym i f0und a new life..s0 SHUT UR FREAKIN MOUTH!!
KAU JGN NK SLH KN AKU JELA...MATAIR KAU 2 YG DA GATAL SNGT!
aku c0ntct dgn die sbgai K.A.W.A.N!
aku tk harap lebih la ehk...aku p0n tk kuase nk RAMPAS die dri ko..
jage la diri n muruah ko baik2 pmpn..
juz rmbr dis _____ , WAT GOES ARD CUM ARD!

MagicaL WorLd of LiL Dee

back to square 1??

i mish him more den anithng

Guilty

He's not giving up

Random

Unbelievable

Neva thot i cud cry wen its ur last time wip us.

My Darling Azlin wuz terminated..*sigh*

out wit crazy fwen

Transformer wuz COOL!

there is sth special...

Close 2 my heart

A Note Juz fer U, HYRUL

060608

SWINE FLU in S'pore!!!

Memories

Wen dinner wit my CLOSEFWENS

Shopping & Gift

She's Out *sobsob*

Wat a day! Fuuuuh!

New Werk Plc, New Ppl & New environment! hehe

A New Fwen.. =)

Freaking fedup la seh..

Alot of shocking News la..hehe..

NDP Audition!!

Loving This Song

8th of Apr

My B'lated B'dae Celebration at Cash Studio

2nd of Apr

310309 (Disappointed & upset)

Out wit my gerlfwens...

Confused

Yana's surprise b'dae!

It's Cid B'dae!! Weeee~

Met a Fwen...

A True Fwen

woriie...

Fishing

Lucky miie

He Left 151108, He Came Back 161108

Busy Lateli

Hypocrite

Iftar wif fwenx

Nxt few daes of work...

Working...

080908

Nite cycling

300808 Picnic!!

280808

Juz wat i feel...

New luk...

230808=Appreciation Tea

Juz memories of you left

on daddy's dae...

shut ur mouth!

My Darling Azlin wuz terminated..sigh

She's Out sobsob